So I was going to write more about the other story, but I don't want to. So it's on to something different.

Like Timothy said, it is difficult to be married so young, we don't act like a normal married couple. We used to fight alot, but we're both learning that that doesn't solve anything, it only hurts. So we're doing alot better there :)

It's still kind of stressful. I very rarely like going to work (well I never like going to work, but sometimes I do have fun there...but not often)

There's alot of things going on at home. It's really not as bad as it seems, but it is stressful. Timothy's mom gets angry if we dont do things....but it's like ...it's our house, ya know? So that brings up a lot of stress, the fact that I'm the only one working right now with 3people and 2dogs in the house, so food and all that crap. I think one of the biggest just stress urgh is the dishes. I get home at 10pm, either I cook or Timothy cooks, but after that who wants to do the dishes? So I leave them until the next day. We don't use them all or anything like that, but Timothy's mom believes that we leave them for her to do.  Timothy doesn't do dishes, which is fine with me, it doesn't stress me out or anything, I couldn't care less about him not doing them, but his mom gets...ill...now she won't do them (which is good, those are my dishes and I will do them when I get up) It's just difficult. Timothy and his mom are hard headed and freakin stubborn. I do the little things just so they won't fight or argue. But sometimes it weighs alot....I mean when I want to go into the bedroom and just....relax....something always happens and I end up trying to calm down Timothy, because mom likes to say things that she knows will aggrevate him.

I'm gonna stop here cuz Timothy and I are gonna go shopping....and we get a FREE movie rental, lol yay us.

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So yeah, the other thing that is really aggrivating is Max....Timothy's mom's dog. He's 12 1/2 yrs old. Blind, Diabetic, Stupid, and just....urgh. Like just today, he woke up, pooped and peed in the kitchen, then I gave Jan (my dog) some water and Max drank the rest. He peed again, and (that was the last I gave him water so far today) but he's still managed to pee 4 more times. ...in the kitchen....he needs to be put down, to releave him of his misery and ours. She doesn't want to put him down yet because she says he's not ready to die. The doctors say that he does have more time in him, but it's going down rapidly. I think she's keeping him alive for herself. She's not ready to let him go. I say, you know he's about to go into the deep end. And you know you don't have the money to take him to the vet every month at $70 a visit. and insoline at $30 a bottle that lasts a month. So put him down now while he's close to the horrible pain he's going to feel soon, not in it.
But she won't listen.She says she should, but she wont'.

Other then that, I'm just tired. Timothy says that both of them can see that I'm stressed beyond all reason, but I don't feel it. We talked about it and now I can sorta see why I don't think I'm stressed.
Anyways, we're still learning and finding out new things, so it's really good. We're tired and stressed, but we're together, which is good enough for me :)
I think we'll be okay. :)

I dont' know what to write about. I'm not thinking of much. Kind of tired.
My day is long, and it seems like I have a lot to do, but I really don't, I just choose to do something instead of sitting down, so it's my own fault. But since Timothy had to go to the doctor and is now pretty sick, I take care of him, which I love doing, but when he's on the computer or sleeping there isn't much for me to do even tho I'm still in the mood to do something, so I clean. Then go to work, then come home and do the same thing.

I wish I could write like Timothy does, he thinks about something and writes it all out. Me, heh, I think I'm just to tired and/or lazy to think.

On August the 22nd, I flew to Washington for my brother's wedding. it was AWESOME!
I haven't seen my family in almost a year. That's the longest, by far, that I've been away from my family. So needless to say it was a great reunion, but way to short, I arrived at my Aunt's house at midnight, ate a hamburger, then went to bed, got up, spent the morning talking to my grandma. (which was soo much fun) then I decided to take Roxy (my cousin's pitbull) for a walk. As I was walking her I saw my friends car drive by, I doubted that they saw me, because it's been a year and I didn't think that they'd expect to see me walking down the road. I turned the corner that would take me around to my church, and there was this guy getting out of a car, I don't pay attention very well so I just smiled at him and kept walking, then he kept looking at me and the dog and I was about to say "can I help you sir?" But before I did he opened his arms and I really looked at him and realized that it was my brother   So we talked for a little while, then he had to go get the wedding rings and stuff so I kept walking.
At 4ish my sister and dad came, we went to the church, and waited for the rest of the family to arrive so that we could start the rehersal (sp?) dinner. then we all went to my other sisters house and waited for my mom and everyone else to show up.

I'm going to get off here but I'll finish everything later.

Ciao

Welp, I feel like crap, I have to work tomorrow morning, which is AWESOME....cuz I did have to work tomorrow night, I hate nights so it's a plus, I'd rather not work at all....but this way I get an extra hour and money...so wewt for that.

On Saturday Kelly said that she'd take us up to see the puppies, who now have their eyes fully open and stuff, (she says they're alot more fun now)

I finally finished a letter I was writing to my dad for a month...sent it yesturday, probably will get a reply in a month or so...

New plans are coming and it's scary but we'll see where God leads.

as for really anything new? Nothing, I'm tired, my throat hurts, and I have something on the top lip inside, and it hurts like heck.

That's all for a while I guess, I'm not feeling good so ....blah, ciao for now.

Wow, so no puppies, I have seen pictures tho, and they look SO cute. One has stripes...Kelly said that if he keeps them then she's going to take him lol. Anywhichway....

I got the CUTEST dress the other day from a friend....I love it! I want to wear it all the time...but it's a summer dress and Winter is very near...like it's cold but on Holloween it'll be REALLY cold and that'll start the winter freeze...DANG IT! I have to wait so long to wear it!
I know....VERY weird that Toni wants to wear a dress...at all. It's pink with flowers (huge prints) that just cover the dress...halter top ( I know) but I wear a black little jacket over it and it looks SO cute...I love it.
I also got a blue one, but it's shorter and it's got frill, which I kind of like at the top, but I don't like the bottom of it...
Then I got a pink tank top with Bashful on it...he's so cute.

Last night was good...I got to babysit (the oldest was being kind of a pill but it was fine) they all went to sleep at 10:00pm (well the two littler ones went to bed at like 9:00 or so...Then their mom came back and we had a really good talk...we were supposed to leave at 10:30pm but ended up leaving at 12:30am. I didn't want to wake up this morning...and I honestly wish I hadn't, but I had things I needed to do, and my sista called so that was good to talk to her for a little bit...I don't know if I really have that much energy to go to work tonight....I really really don't want to...to the point that if I broke my leg right now....except for having to pay bills for it, I'd be happy if it got me out of work lol. But money is money, and ya need it....so I'll go...HAPPY NOW!? >.> had to get that out, sorry lol

I wrote an email to my dad a while ago....and I haven't heard anything back....he might just not check his emails that often but it's been a month or so...so I don't know. Some of my family members can have a relationship with him...but I don't see it working for me....ever really.

I was going to write a whole bunch of crap....but I just got really tired, so I'm going to go take a nap before I have to go to work....I'll write more later.

No puppies....well at least I haven't seen any puppies yet, we were supposed to go yesturday, but Kelly's mom was in the ICU at the hospital so yesturday wasn't a good day. Today Kelly is sick....so it is again, not a good day...I'm quite BLAH! right now, I'm tired and bored out of my mind, but that doesn't matter.

I want to curl up and watch Monty Python and the Holy Grail really really badly...that's the best show, I'm sayin all the little quotes I remember, just because. ...just in my head at the moment, until someone says something to me like "How are you" I'll be like "I'm feeling better" or something.

Anyways, I was trying to waste time, but I'm too bored to write anything...and not hyper enought to try lol.

So I'll leave off here.

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