wow, this is so messed up.  I spent like 30 minutes writing my detailed entry on my day with Estha last night, and it's GONE!  =_=

I bet it was me.  I probably forgot to click on submit or something, so I won't start to complain.  +_+

Well, to make the long thing short, I was just saying how Estha and I spent 12 hours together yesterday.  Let me make this correction, tho.  It's not 12 hours, it's more like 18.  *^^*

We did fun fun orgo lab together and ate lunch and then worked some on the project, and then walked to bryant park (my favorite place to be when I feel like writing poems or letters or something....  or whenever I wanna think of my friends out there), then aimlessly through TimeSquare (my favorite when I wanna reassure myself that I'm alive and well, living in the most famous city in the world), and then to Rockefellar Center (so romantic) and stopped by Lindt Chocolate store on 53rd and 5th Ave. (we were the last customers!) to buy some of my favorite chocolate! 

Then we came to my place and ate so much sushi! (after both of us had said that we were'nt hungry at all -_-) And then we chatted chatted chatted!  Yeah, girl talk.  You know how much I missed that?  How much I missed girl friends....  I'm so thankful that God finally gave me such awesome girl friends here at school to walk through the hard times with.  Girl friends last. 

I don't know why I've only recently come to realize that.  I had never thought about that before.  I didn't have many girl friends in high school, but that never bothered me.  Like.... in HSS, basically I knew 3 girls in the entire program, and because they were all busy with something, I ended up hanging out with the boys gang.  And I've always been that way, you know.  My mom said I was supposed to be a boy.  She said I kicked her stomach so hard when I was inside that she was 200% sure of my being a tough baby boy.  To her disappointment, I was a born a girl.  But everyone has always commented on my unusual "manliness".  Boys have always considered me part of their boy crowd, not a special little girl hanging out with all guys or something.  =_=  And I'm quite aware of my masculine qualities.  Sometimes I wonder if I'm male inside or something.  Huh?  What the heck am I talking about?  Ok, let me drop that subject here since it's starting to sound a little scary.  I might scare away my friends.  *^^*

But my point being, my day out talking the girl talk with Estha was such a pleasant experience.  Jungmin, Estha.... thanks, man~!  You guys really cheer me up, you know.  And Kuri!  I remember how you, too, wanted to have more girl friends (relationships that last!) and then you told me you had decided to go to an all-girls college.  Hehe....  and I envied you so much cuz you looked like you were having so much fun in college while I was miserable here.  =_=  But now I finally found some awesome girl friends here!  Aren't you happy for me?  *^^*

I'm not trying to say that my relationship with my guy friends are unimportant or something.  Of course they are!  Guys are much better than girls at cheering you up with stuff that make you feel special you know.  But then....  I'm just saying that I've come to realize that my relationships with guys can't be long-lasting ones.  (except for the one man that I'll end up marrying) You know.... because like I said when I quoted Hemingway, guys have to have somewhat of an interest in you or at least have to be able to imagine you as a potential something (not that they like you, but they just hafta be able to see the slightest possibility) to even have a basis of friendship with you.  I mean... that's a fact.  I know.... it was hard for me to take that to heart, too, but girls, believe me.  Guys are creatures of ....  well, they're different.  Let's say that.  Which means.... your friendship with them will easily wither away when your friend finds that perfect woman for him.  I mean.... to you, that doesn't make any difference to your friendship, BUT!  To him, there is definitely a difference.  And to his girlfriend, there is even a clearer difference.  *^^*

Ok, I don't know how I've just drifted away on that.  Well, I didn't get enough sleep last night so I'm still tired, but since I've got stuff to do today....  I better get things started. 

Ciao~