Lord I give you my heart, I give you my all.

Praise the Lord. 

I kept complaining.  I kept blaming.  I kept crying.  I kept asking.  Why not more, why not more, my Lord. 

I just couldn't understand.  Why not more, Lord.  Why is this blocking my path, Lord.

So I dragged my tired body to the prayer meeting tonight.  I was desperately in need of prayer. 

And there I saw, and there I heard. 

Amongst the outcries of my loving brothers and sisters....  There was God's answer.

He had already given me so much.  I mean... it would take the rest of my life to thank Him for everything He's done for me until now.  No, it would take longer. 

And God answers.  YES, He does.  For when I walked into The Cooper Union for the first time more than 3 years ago, I could only name a handful of Christians here.  I used to hear people saying that our school was a half-Jewish, half-Atheist school.  So I prayed.  I prayed that our school would one day be filled with the Holy Spirit...  Filled with the people of God. 

And YES, there was His answer.  He gave me more than 3 years to pray for this cause, but He answered.  YES, now I know He answers. 

And now I ask God to please hold me tight.  And to never let me go.  Please....

If I were to give my present energy state in numbers.... it would most likely be a negative number.  But I know that my God is a God who Provides. 

God will make a Way, where there seems to be no way!  Yes, He will!  And I have faith in Him.  Now, Faith, by definition, is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. <Hebrews 11:1>  I know we can't always see what he has in plan for us.  But if we let ourselves be discouraged by that, nonono.  Then how can we say that we have faith?  The Bible gives us this exact definition of faith.  Let's make it ours! 

Just to be with us, He would do anything.  He would give His life.  Yes, that's how strong His love is.  Now, who can beat that?