I promise myself I'll never go back......but the world just seems to push me there.
All I can do is keep walking away farther and farther.

But sometimes you'll just feel lost and lonely and take the U-turn and go back to civilization. Maybe hope is all I have and passion doesn't seem to be the solution to this obstacle. Love ones seem to be the only one that keeps telling me to keep walking farther, but why do I feel so alone. I've been there before and always wanted there to be people around. Not being alone was the reason I walked past this path in the first place. Success to me have always been the fact that all those around you, wherever you are, are always with you. They're your shoulders, ears, and hands that are there for you. Everyday you sit there and you think you're going to fall, but there's always someone there to catch you. So why do I keep thinking I HAVE to walk alone. Maybe there's a reason why being alone is so hard for me to handle. Maybe God place me here to be just that. The world doesn't revolve around me, but everybody around me. All I am is the moon that orbits around each one. I go through day after day thinking about what I can do about my life, but maybe I should think about what I can do about my loved ones' lives. People always say you should be happy where you are. I keep thinking why I should be happy for being selfish. Sometimes I imagine what my life would be if I never left. How lonely it would be? How my best friends would not know who I am? How it would feel to have everything but nothing at all?

Thru these times I have found answers for all those questions. I wouldn't give anything up......not the people in my lives.....not the situations I get myself in...not the tons and tons of bills to pay...not the hair that turns white on me....not the stress that leaves me to slam my fist to the wall.....not even my enemies. 

In conclusion, I'm happy about all the decisions I made in life. Just like a very very special person said to me the other day..everything happens for a reason. I just promise from this day on...I will put all my passion and heart in helping ,not myself, but everybody around me. I promise to fully understand the word SUCCESS and to make sure that my defintion for it will never change. High hopes is all I have but hope is all I need.   

I just wanted to say that I love you guys.

For the people who have listen to me through these confusing times and actually haven't knocked me out yet, I love you. (you know who you are)

For the people who always been there for me, cheer me up when I needed it, and be like stupid kids when we can, I love you.

I feel like the luckiest man alive, with not just one best friend but a whole fleet. THANKS!