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  • Just a Little Early........ I wasn't due with my first child until April 20th. The weeks had seen me grow progressively bigger. At the state Holstein convention the weekend before I delivered, I felt as big as some of…

  • I made it through another day of work today. More importantly, I made it through scene study class last night. Boy, was that interesting. The scenes that were presented for polishing were proficient in varying degrees…

  • Falling back into life's normal rhythm, Enjoying the simple pleasures of a day's work done, Sitting naked at the computer to type my way back to normalcy. Tonight's scene study will be scary, but ok since Two weeks …

  • Congratulations, boy wonder1111 accepted at state university of new york at purchase design tech program& Ithaca college theater conservatory program!!!!!!

  • I thought I could go back to being lighter today, but I can't. I'm trying to figure out why Charle's death has hit me so hard. let me explain. I've been present at many deaths. I've supported many families through …

  • Here's a picture looking down into the gorge. This shot is looking from atop a rock ledge. It was taken a few days ago when I was laying on the rocks, looking up and recharging my batteries. It was also taken before…

  • Dear Beloved Firstborn, You never call, you never write. I miss you, though you can see I'm getting my basking in the sun time. The new cat, Nifkin, has finally started to leave my tail alone. He's a little annoyin…

  • On a day like today , I feel like I'm being sucked into the black vortex. Depression is pulling at my pants leg, threatening to suck me into my own special biochemical morass. I don't want to do the things I need to do…

  • That which does not kill me makes me stronger. That which blows me off balance trains my legs to better walk the tight rope, Choosing my steps carefully, trusting my instincts honed hard as taut muscle. I am a stro…

  • Charles died yesterday. He was the husband of my friend, father to Thong Boy and surrogate dad to Boy Wonder and Beloved Firstborn. He was my friend. He had a history of heart disease and apparently had an event and d…

  • Rest In Peace, Charles.

  • Tomboy What kind of little girl were YOU?brought to you by Quizilla Not entirely accurate, but it'll do. Blessings.

  • WELCOME, SCROBER! Not only did I go outside, I went back into town and took a Spin Class. It helped improve my mood. I ran lines with Runner Girl and then waited for Hip Guy. And waited. Until finally, he called. …

  • Joan Baez has a tree house. I want one, too. If not a tree house, then a small shelter in the woods where I can hang out and avoid the guys when my moods are swinging like this. Today I realized that Beloved Firstbor…

  • I hate the way I am choosing to react to things. I hate the way my emotions just flash up and take me away. I hate the Fire Department. I hate when I let my son do things and something screws up and The Chief and I ha…

  • I am reminded today that one needs fresh air and exercise lest the spirit die within. It's snowing steadily here- it is spring after all!-and I was feeling trapped in a cage of my own devising. So with the words of Dre…

  • Welcome XEnejieX !

  • I want to go dancing again. No, strike that. I want to dance again. I'm ready todance again. Out loud. In front of an audience bigger than my picture window. It doesn't hurt to dance, anymore. To sway about , to m…

  • PotPourri A Minor Goddess on a Major Continent came calling for my heart. I didn't know I'd fall for her though I did right from the start. She said she'd offer me healing, comfort and commode, Mixing up her potions…

  • Read Madame L -she's cool!

  • Her pear shaped body almost too accurately mirrored my own. She stood slightly taller than I, and was ten years younger, but we certainly were in possession of similiar sized hips. The conversation was pleasant enough …

  • The button on the bottom of this page reads, "Submit" To what? I realize in this case it's a simple enough direction, allowing one to put out there for all to read what ever is spewing forth from the fountainhead of m…

  • A touch of crainial-sacral work, some fresh air and a fire in the stove make for an improved Tam. The wool batting surrounding my brain seems to be subsiding. I will return to work tomorrow,as I can't afford to take th…

  • Joyous Wednesday to you from that Compost Eatin'Fool, Jacqueline Basset! Blessings

  • I'm missing Beloved Firstborn tonight. Boy Wonder, too, but not in the same way. I'm missing their little boy years. When Beloved Firstborn was three or so, he started being a vegetarian. The first time he refused mea…

  • One of the nicer, unexpected side effects of being home from my own stupidity,i.e., rushing, is being able to just hang with the critters.The Chief's truck is in need of repair, so he has the fencing van and I am vehicle…

  • How to go off road without really trying. A photo tribute to all those xangans who photograph themselves in mirrors with much better results. blessings

  • Which poem are you? Dover Beach by Matthew Arnold You're probably strongly political, and a pacifist. Hey, and you're also slightly depressing. You think a lot of things suck and are pointless. Congratulations! …

  • the concensus is that I have given myself a bit of a concussion. Standing up induces nausea and dizzyness. Too long with TV or computer makes my vision nutsy. This is a bit much. Back to the couch with me. Blessings.

  • From now on, College Boy will henceforth be known in my blogs as Beloved Firstborn. An astute reader of this work has pointed out a possible taint of favoritism. Since I, as a mother, wish to avoid said allegation, I a…

  • You've heard a lot about Jacqueline Basset. This is the other canine denizen of our home, Spike. He's a mix of terrier, shelty and English sheepdog. He came to us from the shelter when he was eight months old. He's e…

  • Here's the Dowager Empress coming back from the bird feeder and sopping up the suet from the snow. She's holding her own, thanks to better living through chemistry! Blessings.

  • If anyone has information on living with an infant with Celiac-Sprue, I would most appreciate it. My Great-Niece Joie is having an intestinal biopsy today for said disease entity. She's already had the blood tests with…

  • How much do I love The Chief? Enough to arrange for us to be awoken by bagpipes Sunday morning. We're having house guests. He'll either love it or I'll have retribution for the next fourteen years. Blessings

  • The sensible thing to do tonight at this hour would be to recline in repose. However, at night I am not known for my eminent sensibility. A few musings. My scene partners are so different. Trooper is middle-aged, gr…

  • I'm feeling grateful tonight for the Xangans in my life. So, let me give thanks for Jane Eyre, who first reached out to me when I was looking for something other than teenagers, cutters and anorexics. Dreadpirate, for…

  • Heart of Crystal What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?brought to you by Quizilla Thanks to Thespis, et al. for the 'Latest' Quiz. Seems there are a few crystal hearts out there, thankfully. Blessings.

  • Sometimes in the middle of the night I long to feel your hot, sweet breath on my neck. Our legs entwined, we sleep cheek to cheek, backs to each other, toes touching. Intoxicating slumber, hours pass as we dance somewh…

  • I'm all jazzed up from Scene Class. I met with Young Hippie Guy early this afternoon and we ran through lines. The play,"Your Mother's Butt" came together better with a read. We made copies at the natural foods store…

  • Welcome, IMDragonSilverWolf!!

  • Dry, white snow falling, Soft, warm blue flannel beckons, With regrets I go.

  • A nap does wonders for improving perspective. For instance, I'm now able to see the more positive aspects I've brought to my children because I have the strength of character to deviate from the path my parent's walked.…

  • I had a conversation with Boy Wonder last night that's left me feeling a little sad and wondering if I shouldn't have kept my mouth shut. We were talking about my scene study class and the compliments i recieved. Some …

  • Warning!First paragraph contains mildly graphic description of the results of inadequate oral care! Not for the squeamish!!Quiet day of rest at home. I cleaned out the car, made puddings and milk shake for my honey. He…

  • Over the Notch I went today, to Bristol for breakfast with Tennis Vixon. I am not by nature a morning person. If I had my druthers, I wouldn't roll out of the sack until after ten, followed by two leisurely hours of re…

  • ODE TO A DAIRY COW You could have cared less, though I'm not sure how, When you called me a sway-backed, bitter old cow. A brindled, cud-chewing being you scorn, with wary eye, and twisted horn. Though you yank upon …

  • I sit here in the middle of the night I see your eyes across the oceans. Though I hear you in the next room, breath light as fog I wonder if I truly see all of you. Only two people really know what happens in a relat…

  • Congrats! You're a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as mostof them go, are all compatible creatures, butPure ones simply are symbols of God. PureAngels always appear when a child is born, whena rainbow is seen, or when someone…

  • My right arm has finally popped back into proper placement in the socket. Interestingly enough, it happened as I stepped backward onto The Chief's boots. I lost my balance. As I flailed my arms to keep upright, a shar…

  • What Makes Me Happy? The smell of snow fog on a spring morning. My sons Driving fast on a long stretch of straight, abandoned road Being present. What Makes Me Hopeful? The feel of the first spring sun upon my face…

  • The Chief is home and asleep in the other room. He's snoring more than he has in the entire time we've slept together. He can't lie on his side or stomach because of the stitches in his mouth. I've set myself up in th…

  • It's time to increase Jacqui's steroids again. She's looking gaunt in a surprisingly short two to three days. We had cut back to twenty milligrams every other day. Now it's back to every day. I don't think the old gi…

  • You're a Water Dragon! Congrats! Like ice dragons,you are extremely powerful, but show it moreoften. You are a leader, and like to speak youropinion. You are charming, swift, andgreat at dancing, you enjoy getting stuck…

  • Resolution I did something today I've wanted to do for a long time. I set someone toxic free from my life. I was to have completed a trade today with the energy worker. The woman had seen me at her home a week ago. …

  • You're Siddhartha!by Hermann HesseYou simply don't know what to believe, but you're willing to try anything once. Western values, Eastern values, hedonism and minimalism, you've spent some time in every camp. But you sti…

  • Territory I swear, there are some people who, were it not for their vestiges of humanity, would lift their leg and urinate upon another to assert dominance when words fail. I'm dealing with one of them right now. He's…

  • Miscellany It's a hot pink kind of day. Luscious and full of potential. I made my way to Scene Study. It went better than I thought it would. I put more pressure on myself by entering a few minutes late. Most ever…

  • FEEL THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY I am procrastinating leaving the house for scene study. Beset by self-loathing and the motto, "I suck,"running through my mind, I feel fraudulent walking into that room tonight.There's pl…

  • Thanks, Cyberkyst, for the link! Much more fun than preparing to go to work. I will now do that. Blessings.

  • You are the Goddess of Air. You are veryintuitive. You inspire other Goddesses sincewithout you nothing would exist. You make sureyou are always intuned to your spirituality.You're most definately one of the most Wisest …

  • No Matter How Old One Is, Sometimes You Just Need Your Mom At Night. I got to bed late last night. After 12:30. About two hours later, Boy Wonder awoke me. He'd been puking. His stomach hurt, really badly. He looke…

  • I think I've got the financial aid thing complete for Boy Wonder. We're missing snooty college's deadline, but he doesn't want to go there anyway, so I'm not that concerned about it. His top three are done. I recieved…

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