Why hello. How are you today? I'm doing especially well. Thank you for asking. Not a problem.
The other day I was given the opportunity to take claim in my job. It was an opportunity to take pride in the work I do. I micromanage people in a retail store so that the larger picture of "benefit" aka profit is accomplished. Now to be fair in this portrayal, I work in the retail aspect of a non-profit organization. I sit ackwardly at my desk everyday thinking about the odd juxtaposition of my work and the organization's mission statement. I describe my job as "creating capital by exploiting your hunger for consumerism for the greater good" which sounds a lot like the president's justification for using violence to keep the peace. So besides the methodology of it all, I can say that my job is largely unsatisfying because I'm doing work I am capable of but not challenging me in a manner that my heart wants to be challenged. I mean no one imagines themselves loving work, but there is an aspect of work that should be a result for the love of the job. Ever heard of a "labor of love"? Last night I was thinking about the subconscious desire for a life goal. I used to be a firm believer that one should follow the first career path you wanted to be as a child. But I found that maaaaybe...I have to revise that plan. I mean how many little girls wanted to be princesses later in their lives? My love of being a superhero/ghostbuster pretty doubtful b/c I don't have super powers or a cool ghostbuster gun. Now I still have my day dreams about rescuing a child from being crushed by an out of control speeding car, but reality brings me back. But I do feel that we all have a certain degree of foolish hope we have to "fess" up to. We have to find that lowest common denometer about what would makes us truly happy in life. Our choices are pretty bleak in terms of success rate, but what choice do we have? Its either walking down this rocky road of unforseeable failure and obstacles or secretly hoping that kids forget to check both ways.
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ryc: craig's list is awesome. I've lived off of it for the past 3 weeks, and so far, I haven't been raped or sent any spam mail. Therefore, I conclude that it is safe.
I sort of get you. I came upon that realization in the last 6 months. It's kind of ridiculous to want to become a 'set' something from a young age. I mean, who dreams of becoming a carpet company's executive or assistant director of this-or-that? Decided to take it slow....set goals 4 years at a time....that way, no burdens on my part and I'll feel more comfortable. In other words, just 'rollin with the flow...'rollin.
Erm, who are you? You visit my posts at the most random times?! lol. just curious.
I understand where you're coming from. But I can't really relate to the whole wanting to be a princess thing when I was younger, because well, I never wanted to be one. Is it then naive to think that I'll actually become what I've wanted to be since I was in late elementary school? Maybe. I'm at the point where I feel like i'll be in school forever and the debt of my education will consume any ounce of happiness that I will have once I finally reach that goal. yeah.
hahaha. good point in check. that was silly of me to ask, wasn't it? about as sensible as those 'about me' boxes that I never seem to be able to fill in.
lol. and yes, I am a craig's list addict.