| | i've realised that i can't live on my own fuel...i need the fuel that comes from God to sustain me. so many things have been discouraging me lately, many things have cast doubt on my beliefs...many of the precepts i hold to have been challenged indirectly.
questions linger...and i wonder why i have to run this race. i feel like it's so much easier to be like everyone else.
but this question has always been around...especially when you feel that people treat your beliefs like an alien, you feel this way when your brothers & sisters in Christ don't share your vision and passion, you also feel this way when you let yourself down with your incompetence. i feel i lack the will to effect change for God many times...
i've been going through a rather low period in terms of my relationship with God, and i know where i stand...
the challenge for myself is not to drift further, try to strengthen my foundations once again, and be firmly rooted again. to treat the bible with respect, and to ensure my conduct is worthy of commendation before Him.
it's not because the bible demands it, but i've developed a sense of responsibility and i set high standards for myself. so i know that i fail so often that i need His grace.
as a human, it's tough having to live by grace, coz you feel that you can do everything on your own. but the more i live without grace the more i feel unhappier...it's pride in me and my unwillingness to accept i need Him completely.
my prayer for the week ahead is for God to teach me a lesson in life...show me something that i need to know, help me to grow, and bless me in whatever i do, at work, and also to strengthen and bless my loved ones.
ps My condolences to Joanne and baby, over the demise of Olaf, her husband through cancer. it's tough when a close one is taken away from us. we can only think of the joy and happiness he is experiencing in heaven at this moment. we turn our eyes to Jesus, and know that we too, shall be rejoicing one day for eternity.
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| | Posted 11/12/2006 3:54 PM - 6 views - 0 comments
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