These couple of weeks to days have been extremely stressful. Ive been attacked by tests and personal issues. Lately the issue of mid-terms are stressful. I have been working on 5 hours of sleep. Dont know why, but i am able to still runn strong. Thank You God that Im able to work and do all these things. Im also worried about my grades. ITs not only that its mid-terms but my grades have me in a bit. I do not know what im doing sometimes and it hurts. I guess, im just worried about how college is for me. I am still worried. I still look to God and others for help. Pretty Glad that i have a great group of friends here that are helping me and encournging me along. Now, I reach a problem with my issue of friends. I do have a great group of friends, and I am always meeting and wanted to know new people. It is something of a blessing, but it is also a curse. It seems like I might be getting into problems that I really shouldnt be. There are many incidents that have occured, but I have and know my limits. Friends are something that have helped me through my problems, but i do miss alot of my friends back home and friends at other colleges. Like working here in a different college, it is hard to keep in contact with those in another college on campus. But we still want to work some time out to see each other. For that Im glad. But friends have cause some trouble in my life. It is stresful to see a situation go nowhere and well, other and me can see something happen. If you dont know waht Im talking about, thats alright, Im just ranting. Argh, just so many issues that I can relate to that it hurts. I want to help out, but lately, I can only do so much.
However with my friends, They do come through at times. especially those that I have come into close contact with. Those that i have worked with and those that care for me. THey treat me differently and i can see that. I am glad and truly in depth. IT is something amazing to see and to feel. I sometimes dont understand, but I do know that they want to work thing out for me. It is amazing to see that whatever happens, I got friends that can and will look out for me. I suppose that I have made a great group of friends here At SC. Not only that, but my friends have pulled through at times with my help. It is great to meet new friends here, but My friends back home are also great. They always are checking up and asking how i am doing. Im grateful for that. It is a mystery to me why they want to do this for me. Like, people say that im a great person and all, but i dont see it at times. I want to be someone that is careing and loving and all those things, but i really dont see myself in that manner. Might be great if i can see it sometimes, but Im glad that i have affect my freinds in that manor. I am glad that my friends both in Sc and back home have came by to help me and understand my problems with me.
Right now, i am going through a problem that involves just me and God. Please pray for me.
-gecko
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