"Never consider someone a priority when you are only an option."

    It's not like i've never heard that before. but i've never really thought into it. always thought that someone can't really be someone else's priority. what about eating? sleeping? general health? i thought there was no way people'd forget about those. i mean, you need those to survive. well kinda not really, you can slack a bit but you won't be living very well. that's what i thought. i was quite sure too. then bigger things came into thought. all that stuff is the present yeah. but what about the future? if your willing to give up that much. what are you willing to give up in the future? what have you already given up unconciously? i've heard stories, i've known people, no wonder some people get scared.

    another thing was, the line is consider blah blah priority blah blah option. i never actually seen it as... you can both live if both's intentions are the same. like. if your both an option to each other. it'd work out. like lets say both of you go work school 80% of the time in a week. not including the time you sleep cause that just gets complicated. it'd be okay cause both are busy, can't really miss some one when your doing things. or if your pursuing a dream or career. all of that needs your attention. if all their attention on you and your attention's on something else, few months maybe.

    i also saw that "love"... totally depends on how much attention is circulated in the relationship. and that time is totally irrelevant to it's value. events that occur within the lifespan of the enriched friendship is what truely shows what's up. if she's your priority and your hers. there's your teenage love affair. we get that in highschool since a vast majority of people don't work + major free time. and all the drama you receive is high school class. it's garbage. she kissed blah blah he touched blah blah yada yada yada. no real tear jerking drama.

    and it's truely by fluke if things work out later on. if nothing happens in the next few years you got it easy. if you have hell comming and your life partner's the enriching encouraging type who's not going through shit as well. sounds like you'll have it great.  but if your both going through crap and you can't be there for each other. ... right place, wrong time.

    not too sure what's worse within a relationship. miscommunication or no communication. what people can understand and what people can imagine can both be terribly terrible. what's worse is when people don't remember. so you basically went through a hell roller coaster with a misconception that someone was there with you.

    sometimes the relationship gets strained by itself. see each other too much, she's being unreasonable, he's being stupid. yada yada. but sometimes it's just the outer elements. it's not like she likes you any less then she did two weeks ago, it's just that she's been so stressed out that she hasn't had the chance to marinate in your adoration. with no marinating, can't have much else.

sometimes... you just get into certain situations you could've never thought was possible. sometimes it's bad. your not only stuck between a rock and a hard place. but those two locations are on fire and are closing in fast. nothing looks good. but in more unbelievable cases. it's actually good. you can't believe that things are actually going well for you. being the natural pessimists that people are. they think it'll never happen.

when you get in a good position... when we all get in a good position. we have a tendency of just cozying down and getting comfortable. cause your doing well. and that's fine. but the problem is we're, most of the time, staying there. i mean it's great to stick there, catch a breather and stuff. but you have to step out of your comfort zone if you really want to improve. physically, mentally. none of that bullshit "i don't wanna change who i am, that's my identity. it's what makes me unique." chances are. if you worked your ass off, the REAL you, deep inside you. the 100% better version of you. will finally go out. CHANGE, to become MORE OF WHO YOU REALLY ARE. if you stick inside that bubble you basically just limit what your capable of doing. anything worth keeping is worth fighting for. anything worth feeling will hurt. anything great... disappears.

LOSE to GAIN. when was the last time you did something perfectly to it's full capacity in the first try? BREAK IT. and MAKE IT AGAIN. BETTER. FASTER. STRONGER. go daft punk on that. if it doesn't work the first time, big whoop. try again. at least you found one way of NOT doing it. give up a little to gain more. give only what your willing to lose. the more you risk the more you may win. MAY win. don't risk it all, or you might risk becoming broke.

is not okay,
but knows what to do.