Tuesday, February 12, 2008

• hey!

   how you been? we haven't talked in a while so i thought maybe it's time to touch base.
   i've been pretty good, best that i've really been for a long time. this time though is hella different then the others. usually i'd be hella tripp'n for this one girl. be hecka strung out. we wouldn't be talking much to each other cause of how i get when i'm around her. you know, all that shy dude stuff. i mean like, i don't mean to do that. it just comes out, it's pretty damn depressing sometimes. but even through that, i'd be writing rhymes, making choreography, doodling little skribbles. harsh cashing out from the gamble of love. then BAM, something happens. something always happens. it never really seems to matter how high the top of the world is. cause even though i feel like i'm right up there, it's just a short fall to rock bottom. and just like that. back to square one.
   like i said though, this time it's different. there ain't a girl in my head that i can't stop thinking of. there isn't a girl who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. nada. this time it's just all me. i may not be making 2-3 choreography peices in a week. maybe 1 in two weeks if i'm lucky. but it feels better. feels more like me if it's anything. 
   things may not be spectacular right now, but it's not horribly hellish. which is good enough for me. usually good enough is never good enough for me but i know i'm getting better, slowly, but still getting better.

  i've got alot more things in my head. i wanna talk about more things but... this is more of a letter. not a autobiography.

  maybe i'll talk to you later.

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