people always tell you that the people you hang out with now might not be around later.

it breaks my heart that some people i've invested so much time and emotion into could lie to my face. could manipulate the only people around her that used to care. lie to her boyfriend so she would have one person on her side.

i already hurt, and i cant afford this bullshit anymore...

i really hate people sometimes and i hate people who put my in situations with no good outcome. and by doing what i please...i look like the fool....i look like the bad guy....i look like the crazy one.

while im here...im going to read a part of my old journal....maybe not...we'll see how much i can handle

i have a lot of shit on the table...and a lot of things that need to be done...

i may actually need help this time around...i feel a headache comin.

i hate that i have to defend myself by a daily reminder of  "i am a good person".....more like convincing because some of this shit...just aint right.

i'm having mad separation issues...

i just have so many issues right now....i might be able to handle it all.....then what happens? what if the load you're dealing with is actually too much for anyone to handle.....what happens then?

sleep time.