Yeah ; I’ll admit it. I miss you; I miss us, but I can’t think about those things anymore.

I have to move on, because this,

This is pointless.

2.)

Don’t give up.
You may be tempted to, but don’t give up;
when you’ve misplaced your hopeful dreams,
dare to believe again in the impossible;
catch a ray of sunshine & hold on tightly;
the one who holds your hand will never let you go

3.) You’ve taught me a lot of things.
Not only about life, but how it’s okay
to feel something extraordinary about someone

4.) she thinks back to an old memory, and she smiles. just ask her if
she thinks about him and she'll say, "yeah, every once in a while."

5.) so i say a thousand stupid things, and half the time i never mean them but this time i'm serious. i'm never going to talk to you first, so if i mean anything- anything at all to you then you can talk to me because i give up.

6.) that night, we talked about our life- our times together. maybe we weren't the same two kids we had once been, but some things never change, some things last. and even though i didn't know what was going to happen to us, or where we were going- i just knew i couldn't let him out of my life.

7.) do you know her favorite colors are pink and purple? do you know she can't sleep with at least two pillows and when someone mentions you, her eyes sparkle? she doesn't like to say i love you if she thinks she may not mean it. did you know she hates arguing, but she's good at it? she loves the way you look at her, but hates to go a day without talking to you. she only giggles if you look at her, but she loves the fact that you do. the only thing that bothers her is when people walk into her life and she knows they can't stay. you are her love. break her heart and it will take a while for her to get over you.

8.) and as she eyes him in the halls, his bright brown eyes
glance her way; coincidence? probably.

9.) i cry at weddings; hospitals make me nervous. i'm sarcastic to a fault, but it doesn't matter. i can be pretty mean; naive is my middle name and i don't believe in perfect love, but it doesn't matter. because he use to love me for it anyways.

10.) fine. i'll admit it, i think of you every second of everyday. you're my favorite subject to talk about. when i hug you, i wish i was allowed to never let you go. most of my dreams have you in them. i always get excited when i get to see you again and i've completely, and totally fallen for you.

11.) even when you think your finally over that boy,
you finally think you like someone else,
you start reading quotes,
and it's still that same boy that pops into your head,
not the new one.

12.) i was falling apart enough with you around. now that you're gone, i don't know what to do with myself. i hope you're doing well. i hope you're happy. but most of all, i hope that you miss me too.

13. )i saw you today. i realized how far apart we've grown. i know i should ask how you're doing, but i can't. i wish i could. it occurred to me that we're strangers now, you don't know me anymore. much less want to. everything is so different now.

14. )she sat in the pouring rain looking toward the sky.
she didn't want anyone to know that she was crying for him again.

15.) she's the girl who's always laughing her ass off with her friends. you walk past her and think, "wow she must really be over me." but no, she's not over you. she wants you, but you never gave her a shot. she's not faking that smile. she's happy, but with you? she'd never stop smiling.

16.) i'll pretend to hate you, tell all my friends i've got a new boy in mind
and i'm head over heels for him as i was you. truth is, you're still him.

17.)

it's hard to get over people, i mean really get over them. you can start to have feelings for other people, but it doesn't mean you're over them. it just means you're moving on.

18.) My theory is if you look confident
you can pull off anything. Even if you
have no clue what your doing

19.) I believed for awhile, I couldn't make it
without you. But I realized, I will, I'll heal
myself. Everything will always turn out okay

hey guys!
sorry i haven't updated a lot, i've just been soooo busy with school and tennis.
i literally have no life.
of well it's fun
i'll try getting in an update today
xoxo
mad

why would you hurt someone
who's been there for you through it all
why would you hurt someone
that you call your best friend.
i've forgiven you so easily, time and time again.
but this time you've gone too far.
^i really like this one. =/

1.) Don’t threaten me with that you think I feel.
If you could read my mind, you would be in tears.

2.)

I want to be able to trust you. But I can’t. You hurt me so much. And I’m not sure if I can just forget that.

--Never_Letting_Go_x33

3.) I've been lonely tonight. I've been fighting the urge to text him and tell him that I miss him. I don't want him to know anymore. I wonder if he even misses me at all. It's easiest when I don't see him, I won't deny that. But I just want to be able to see him without it hurting. I don't want him out of my life forever; I don't want him to forget me.

4._ 

i shouldn't be afraid i should
just stand up and tell him everything
i ever wanted to say, maybe thats just
what i need to do.

5.) 

somethin` about you gets me so excited.
when i`m around you, i just cannot hide it.
try to hold myself, but i just can`t fight it.
one look in your eyes & baby i`m excited.

6.)

one smile -- can start a friendship.
one word -- can end a fight.
one look -- can save a relationship
one summer -- can change your life

7.) "I'm still mad at you, and I don't know if I trust you. I want to trust you, but I don't know if I do. So I'm just gonna try. I'm gonna try and trust you, 'cause I believe we can be extraordinary together, rather than ordinary apart." - Grey's Anatom

8.) And to think, that at one point, I used to be the one who made you smile.

9.) "We met, it seems, such a short time ago. You looked at me, needing me so. Yet from your sadness, our happiness grew. Then I found out, I need you too. I remember how we used to play. I recall those rainy days, the fire's glow that kept us warm. And now I find we're both alone. Goodbye may seem like forever, farewell is like the end. But in my heart's a memory, and there you'll always be." - Fox And The Hound

10.) I just got off the phone with you, sure, I cried. But I did what I had to do; I had to say goodbye.

11.) Everyday people look at me and they see someone strong. But say his name to me, and you'll find out all that strength is just an illusion.

12.) I'm busting at the seams to tell you everything, and it's scaring me because nothing's sure and nothing makes sense anymore.

13.) I wonder what would happen if we fell for each other again

14.) It may seem that I haven't been thinking of you and that this memory of you I've held in my heart, I've finally been able to let it go. I'm just trying to give you some space, give you some time to realize how much you mean to me and hopefully you'll pick up your act and come back. You and I both know that deep inside this thing we've got going on ain't ever going to stop. Because as much as I cry, fight, and stress about you, I wouldn't do it if I didn't think that you were worth it. Whoever you decide to let take my place, just remember that it won't be for long because even though we're not together, please don't doubt that it was real. I don't know what else to do but to wait. Wait for better things, better days. A better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it. I don't want a fresh start; I want to learn from our mistakes together. You know I'd do anything for you. I wanna see how far you'll go for me. There's a lot of things I want, and you're not one of them. I need you. I keep trying to push away these feelings and hide the truth underneath anything that will keep me sane for the day. Me and you, we're just the eighth wonder of the world. I'm dying inside because I hope what I'm saying isn't too late. Ask anyone that knows me well; the best part about me was you.

15.) He asked me how I was, and I said I was fine. Obviously that wasn't the truth, and deep down, I think he knew that too

16.) I wanted to tell him that I'll never be sorry for loving him. In a way, I still do, and maybe I always will. I'll never regret a single thing we did together because what we had was special. Maybe if we were ten years older, it would have worked out differently. Maybe, I think, we just weren't ready for forever.

17.)

i'm through saying sorry for things i didn't do,
i'm done with everything you've put me through.
i gave you three chances to revise
your mess of twisted, made up lies.

18.) believe me - i know it hurts,
but i promise you, it will fade
little by little, day by day.
and before you know it
everything will be okay.

19.)

i know that it doesn't help
to hear that it will get better.
nor does it help to hear that
you're better off without him.
but you will find someone who
makes you happier than he
ever could.

20.)You're not the same person
and it's time to let you go.
There's nothing to fill the space -
just a big empty hole.

21.) Can you just look at how things were,
and how they are now,
and please tell me that i am right.
Just tell me why its so hard
for you to be wrong for once in your life

i've realized who's important and who's not, and that's when your life really does start.

You used to go out of your way just to hold my hand.

But now, you go out of your way just to not talk to me.

I miss the old days.

© jiggy_jello

2.) Some days I cant stop thinking about you
and others I wonder why I even waste my time

3.)

from the corner of my eye, i see a glimpse of you.
my heart is just about to burst into butterflies,
but my mind scolds and says "control yourself.
you know that this boy isn't right for you anymore."

4.) one day, I will pull out that knife,
you so graciously left in my back
& have the courage to stab you in the front.

5.) There's nothing like the deep breaths after laughing that hard,
nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons.

6.)friends are like walls. sometimes you
lean on them, and sometimes it's just
enough to know they're there.

7.) summer changes people,
sometimes in a good way too.
we forgive and forget, we live,
and most importantly, we love

8.) you spend the first two years of their life
teaching them to walk and talk. then you spend
 the next 16 telling them to sit down and shut up

9.) but that summer had a way
of making her smile and feel
happier. it was sort of amazing
how for those three months she
always believed in herself and in
all that she could be.**********

10.) i love the way you look at me, especially when i say something really stupid. you have this "why do i put up with you" look, but right after that it's the "because i love you" look. then the "i must be insane to love you" look, then the "i must be seriously insane" look

11.) & by now, I’m starving for your attention. I would do anything for one taste of your lips, for your facial hair to scratch my neck. I would do anything for one of your big hugs. I want to smell your cologne on you. I want to feel my hands rush through your brown hair, I want this. I want us, I want this beginning to never be an ending. I want my future in you

12.) Chances are I'll never get a moment like this again,
so here's everything I ever wanted to tell you.
No one has ever gotten me like you.
I've never found anyone who makes me laugh like you.
You're the one person I can honestly see myself happy with.
The definition of love to me is you.

13.) There's a bigger world out there.
A bigger world than middle school, than high school,
than the drama, the sluts, the bitches,
the players, the nerds & the jocks.
It's up to you to find it.

14.) She sat there, watching him.
His eyes shining, his bright smile.
She couldn't get him out of her head.
All she wanted was to be with him.
She smiled pretending to be happy.
But inside her heart was breaking.

15. )I love you. Not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday,
right now - at this very moment. I realized something.
I need you. I trust you, I admire you, I want you. &
you can be wrong a lot of the time, & we can fight,
& get mad at each other, but nothing, nothing in this world can change the fact that I love you.

16.) Here`s to you & how you make me smile, here`s to us & the way we laugh together. Here`s to today, for you`re a year older, & I feel a little bit smaller. The essence of you fills both the room & my mind, & all I can think of is the past year we`ve spent together, & how amazing it`s been so far. So celebrate & feel larger than life, because you have infected my life in such a way, that I have never dreamt of

17.) You`ve taught me a lot of things.
Not only about life, but how it`s okay
to feel something extraordinary about someone.

18.) I don`t know what it is about you, maybe it`s the way nothing else matters when we`re talking ; or how you make me smile more than anyone else has. It could be the way that you say the exact right thing at exactly the right time. But whatever it is, I just want you to know that it means everything to me.

19.) - coca-cola would be green if coloring wasn`t added to it.
- your ribs move about 5 million times a year, everytime you breathe.
- Adolf Hitler only had one testicle.
- You share a birthday with at least 9 million other people in the world.
- Only female mossquitos bite.
- The dot over the letter"i" is called a title.
- The largest city in the US with a one syllable name is Flint, Michigan.
- A whale`s penis is called a dork.
- Shrimp`s hearts are in their heads.
- Donkey`s kill more people annually than plane crashes.
- Walt Disney was afraid of mice.
- Your fingernail has the same ingredients as fly poop.
- Turtles can breathe through their butts.
- Weird, but interesting :)

20.) All she really wants is a boy that keeps his promises & listens to her babbles. Someone to call when she gets scared from a movie she`s watching, someone to laugh at her, & someone to hold her hand when she pulls away. It`s not that much to ask for is it?

21.) As I lay here in my bed, I`ll never forget the way you hugged me, the way you loved me, the things you`ll never do again.

22.) I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning. You used to be the one that put a smile on my face.. there are no words that could describe how I miss you, & I miss you everyday.

23.) Ever have that one person in your life that you just can`t give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time, yet you always seem to give them another chance, & no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it`s a lie because there`s always just one more waiting for them. The one person you know you`re better off without but yet you can`t find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn`t know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn`t deserve you, but yet you choose to over look it because you love him.

24.) it`s funny how one summer can change everything. It must be something about the heat & the smell of clorine, fresh cut grass & honeysuckle, asphalt sizzling after late day thunderstorms, the steam rising while everything drips around it. Something about long, lazy days & whirring air conditioners & bright plastic flip flops from the drugstore thwacking down the street. Something about the fall being so close; another year, another christmas, another beginning. So much in one summer, stirring up like the storms that crest at the end of each day, blowing out all the heat & dirt to leave everything gasping & cool. Everyone can reach back to one summer & lay a finger on it, finding the exact point when everything changes. That summer was mine.

25. Sorry-
It’s a word that
doesn’t exactly
fix everything

26.) Its the friends you can call at
four in the morning who listen to you cry
on the phone even when they know he
didnt deserve you anyways..

27.) ever have one of those days
where you hate the world,
& anything that happens,
even dropping your pen,
you wanna break down & cry

28.) Life doesn't hurt until you realize
how much things have changed,
who you've lost, and how you couldnt
even stop it from happening.

best friends forever! that lasted long..

1.) If I'm not in love with you,
what is this I'm goin' through tonight?
And if my heart is lying,
then what should I believe in?
Why do I go crazy everytime i think
about you?
why else do I want you like I do?
If I'm not in love with you.

2.)
Its hard to wait around for something that might not even happen. But its even harder to wait around when its everything you’ve ever wanted.

3.)

I want you to hold me close.
I want you to promise me that you will not let go.
I want you to look into my eyes
and tell me that you love me.

4.)

she's got an smile on her face & a
fuckkk youuu attitude. :)

5.) 

SNAPPP .
crackle .
PoP .
damn that boy is hott . *

6.) You forced me to become strong,
When I craved to be weak.

7.) Sometimes you just need someone
to look forward to seeing you everyday

It's really nice when you can just
think about someone and smile.

9.) nervous hands and anxious smiles.
i can feel you breathing, this is right where we belong.

10.) i'm putting more makeup on then i ever have.
i want to be the prettiest wreck you've ever seen.

11.) the butterflies in my stomach,
they could bring me to my knees.

12.)

I don't miss you. Well, not who you've become. I miss the boy I fell in love with, the one who taught me to love life & never care about what other people think. I miss the boy who had lost so much, but was always ready for what tomorrow brought. I miss the old you, but he seems to have gone & I guess that's why I did too.

13.) You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore & &
believe me when I say it isn't because I don't want
to, it's just that everything I want to say, I can't
tell you anymore.

14.) what hurts more than a heart breaking,
not being able to tell your best friend why your heart broke.
*ilivetoolaugh

15.) I have always been a laugher, disturbing people who are not laughers. upsetting whole audiences at theatres..I laugh, that's all. I love to laugh. Laughter to me is being alive. I have had rotten times, and I have laughed through them. Even in the very worst of times I have laughed.

16.) out of all the people i thought i was going to loose,
i never would have guessed my best friend would be the first one </3
*ilivetoolaugh

17.) And as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I get over your smile, when I will let go of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me, or forget how much I love you. But no matter what you did to me, or whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you.

18.) You cry yourself to sleep at night but once the night is gone & you prepare to face a brand new day. You hide yourself behind that mastermind, you`re in disguise. It`s as if you`re trying to put a mask on your pain.

19.) It's probably the wrong time to tell you this, but I just want you to know that if you ever need me, I'll always be here for you. All you have to do is ask.

20.) No one can tell. It's kind of funny; it's really rather sad. You can walk around like normal, but feel like you're dying. Or like you're already dead. You can fake a smile and a laugh, and when your voice cracks, well, it's only in your head. You're the only one that hears it. People can be so naive. It still shocks me how no one notices.

21.) When two people first start out,
they say a lot of things and make
a lot of promises to each other.
but somewhere down the line,
the sweet things they once said
become bitter words and the
promises they swore their hearts
would keep, are broken.

22.)

I'm scared to get too close to people. Whether its friends or whatever. It seems that everytime I get close to someone, They always have to go away. Maybe it's to teach me how that life goes on & how I shouldn't depend on people. Or maybe, I just trust the wrong people.
***********************

23.)

In these past few weeks,
I've learned that frienship is the most important thing in my life.
Not parents, not boyfriends, the friends who will be with my forever.
The ones who i can count on.
The ones who get what i'm going through and want to help me every step of the way.
They made me realize i don't need some silly boy to have a happy life,
just having them around is enough for me.

24.) Young and crazy.
Life is too precious to worry about the stupid crap,
have fun, party, dance all night, fall in love,
say anything you want, do what you want to do

25.) Do your nights feel incomplete without our phone calls?
Mine do. Do your eyes feel like they’re burning out of
your skull? Mine too. Is it just our little routine that we’re
missing so bad? Or is it the fact that we’re both losing the
best friend that we ever had?

26.) lets talk about spaceships
or anything except you and me, okay ?

27.) You know there's something wrong
when the letters on your keyboard become blurry.

28.)

Im fine. I mean, not that Im over it, but little
by little its getting easier to pretend. Its easier,
which means easier might be just around the corner.

29.) If you ever get maualed by a bear
i hope he stays away from your face
because i think your cute.

30.) when you can't stop smiling after you talk to him and you still get butterflies in your stomach and that huge smile across your face everytime you see him... that lets you know he will always mean something to you.

31.) I want all the cliches. All of them.

32.) You're the only one who
ever really knew me at all.

33.) Someone mentioned your name & asked
if I knew you. I cracked a smile, thinking
of our good times, & said- "No. Not anymore."

34.) girls aren`t that complicated..
i mean, HOW hard is it to say
'you look pretty' and give us chocolate?

35.) Remember when people got to know you
before they judge you? ..yeah, ME NEITHER.

36.) We all just kind of wander around
here aimlessly ; searching for someone
who understands..

37.) You see that girl? Yeah - - her. She seems so invincible, right?
But just touch her, and she'll wince. She has secrets and trusts
no one. She's the perfect example of betrayal. `Cause everyone
she trusted.. broke her.

38.) i`m not a little girl anymore; i`ve learned who
to trust & who to ignore. some girls don`t
know a thing- and a suit case full of
drama is about all they bring !

39.) you think you know who your true friends are? wait until high
school & see who's there for you when your ex-boyfriend spreads rumors
about you. think you'll never do drugs? wait until it's right there in
front of you & all your "friends" are doing it. think your tough?
wait until you say the wrong thing to the wrong person - see who
backs down first. think you're smart? wait until you have an english project,
science project, history test, & a ten minute monologue due tomorrow
`cause you were absent for one day. think you're cool? wait until you're the
only one that doesn't make the sports team - see how cool you are then.
think you're popular? wait until your parents can't afford the new
hollister jeans that everyone has. think you'll never fall in love?
wait until a guy looks deep into your yes & says he loves you.
think you'll never get your heart broken? wait until that same guy
that said he loved you is holding another girl behind your back.
think you won't have sex? wait until the guy you think loves you
says it'll make you closer. think nothing's gonna happen to you?
yeah, wait until you're sitting in a jail cell, wondering how you got caught.
think you're always going to be your own individual? well, wait
until one morning when you look in the mirror,
& you realize you're just like everybody else.

40.)

I started out with a heart full of love..
Now the only thing left is the memory of you </3

41.) There are days when everything seems wrong,
when little things hurt you for no good reason.
And then there are days like today- when the
world just sings to you, from the minute you open
your eyes in the morning, to the minute
you shut them again at night

42.) Sometimes I wonder..why am I friends with you?
Because all you ever do to me is go and tell my secrets
to EVERYONE. You always talk about me behind my back and
then when I find out and ask you why you talk about me behind
my back, you lie right in my face and say that you never did that.
Well, guess what?.. I have GOOD FRIENDS that tell me when
people like you do this to people like me. So you know what bitch?
You can go find yourself some other friends to go f*ck around.

43.) communication.
it's the first thing we really learn in life.
funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words,
and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what
to say or how to ask for what we really need..

44.)

i`ll laugh down the hallway
i`ll smile all through class
i`ll talk during lunch
& do my homework at night.
i`ll talk to everybody
& i`ll be happy throughout the day.
i`ll fool everybody because they
wouldn`t like me if they knew who i am.

45.)

F R I E N D S
a 7 letter word
i couldn't live 7 seconds without.

46.)

she smiles like everyone expects her to.
she's living up to the expectation of never letting
anything get to her.. but something's wrong with that smile today.
[ congratulations, kid. you got to her. ]

47.) he took her by the shoulders,
held her in front of a mirror,
and w h i s p e r e d :
"why can't you see what i see?"

48.) i had the s u n in my hair
& he had this crazy s t a r e
* and i just knew *
this was the best summer so far

49.) they say we stood a [ little ] too close
stared a [ little ] bit too long. they probably
thought we were in [ love] // but who knows.
maybe we were. <3