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your routine is so divine . i have it memorized as you walk to your window, with your light on inside. i know you'll never find me here. as you admire the view, do you know how pretty you look with your hair down? i walk to the window, admiring the view.
if im not over you by the time i get to Georgia, then i guess ill be Alabama bound, there was a time that i'd do anything for you, but this time baby, i wont turn around.
everydays a fashion show & the halls are our runways. we're your mediocre teen actors reading from a script. we're overworked & well rehearsed, underpaid & self-absorbed. oh, but one things for sure, you're gonna see our names in lights someday. haven't you heard? we're the next big things. we go to all the right parties & know all the right things to say. hang out with all the right people, & do all the wrong things, at the right times. party all night & sleep all day. as the curtain opens up & the crowd begins to cheer, we're auditioning for our next movie called life. there's only one question we need answered: who are we pretending to be today?
you're the cutest thing. beauty should be your name. smile. it might not make you feel better - but it will keep people from asking whats wrong.
as girls flock around you, i realize your everyones but mine, oh how i love heartache, the feeling is just so divine.
& this old highway seems to understand, leading me on to somewhere that no one knows my name. i got the window rolled down ; i got the radio up. im doing all that i can to get my mind off us.
look at her smiling, look at her laughing with that gleam in her eye. you would never know that her body has razor marks to help her breath.
taste your kiss with my glossed lips. slip your hands into the pockets of the jeans hugging my hips. unbuttoning my shirt slowly with your free hand ; whispering in my ear, baby, i want to be your man.
just everything about her
screams fake.
Hate to interrupt, but it's against the law to jump off this bridge. You'll just have to kill yourself somewhere else
Life stole my virginity when it
screwed me over.
i expect so little from you
yet, you still find a way to disappoint me
i remember the first time
that i really looked you in your eyes
i was thinking to myself
there will never be anybody else
i'm hurting so bad inside i just wish that you could see
i'm struggling to be someone that isn't even close to me
its a t r a g e d y
how they believe her lies
all those fake smiles.x.x.x
and every utterance of "i'll be fine"
She felt far from okay
but sometimes the biggest
lies slip out easier than the
truth.. <|3
Such a young girl, she would never do anything bad.
Yeah, well thats at least what all of her friends think..
but that boy knows a completely different side of her.
I wish that when they all tell me
That you just aren't worth it
I could tell them they're right
But for some reason
I get this look on my face
And defend you over and over
&& all she wants is someone
to be afraid of losing her
You never get over it, but you get to where it doesn't bother you so much
sometimes i'm just thankful for having
you around. you're so full of mystery, i'll
never figure it out. there's no spoken
commitment, but still we have a pact.
i'll keep playing your game,
if you keep playing back
You look at me and think
[ I N N O C E N C E ]
but you have no clue what I've
[ E X P E R I E N C E D]
I got a new perspective on some things.
Stuff is actually starting to make sense.
Yeah, I might not be there just yet
but believe me,
I'm on my way
He's so wrong for her && full of flaws..
but for some reason..
she just cant get over the fact
that she’s falling for h i m
You're not my friend.
Friends don't look at each other
like we do.
the question isn't
who is going to let me ;;
it's who is going to stop me
courage doesn't always roar..sometimes courage
is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying
i will try again tomorrow
Your picture's still up on my wall.
I don't know why.
It's not even a good picture of you.
I've seen better looking boys,
but there's something about that smile
on your face that makes my eyes fill
with tears. I've always loved that smile.
I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms, to try to make you laugh, because somehow i cant put you in the past.
standing on the edge of tragedy
waiting for someone to push her off
happiness is looking into the eyes
of someone you love
and realizing that the look in their eyes
is the same one you have in yours
In order to be irreplacable one
must always be different ..
On the outside you're not the same kid anymore
you've been through too much lately
but deep down, there will always
be a part of you that rejects reality
The right guy is out there right now,
wondering when he's going meet
someone just like you.
Sorry it takes me so long to update guys. I've been working a whole lot, 9-6 everyday. And then tryin to get some time with friends and all. But, hope you like the update.
xo <3 jess [<3's damian] | | |
| when im married & have kids
& my lil girl asks who my first
t r u e .xo. l o v e "
was i know who ill say...
x o x
You know you`re in love when you
wanna tell everyone about it even
when they havent asked .... *`' x3
A best friend is someone who
walks with you in the hallways
with her arm on your shoulder
and your arm around her waist
and screams out to little faggots,
"DON'T LOOK AT US LIKE WE'RE LESBIANS!"
Everytime I want to give up on him, there's
always something inside telling me to just give
it some time.
A best friend is someone who screams to
you in the hallways saying, "I LOVE YOU,"
not caring if anyone thinks they're a lesbian,
only caring that you hear them everytime.
They say we stand a little too close, and stare
a little bit too long. they probably think we're
in love. But who knows, maybe we are.
when you say im beautiful
im like pshh yeah right
but what im really saying is
do you really think so?
+i hate going to bed
thats the time
when i have to
hang up the phone-with you<3
++It's when I see him acting like an idiot
I realize then, how much i love him . . .
boy: whats your biggest fantasy
girl: to be kissed in the rain; how about you?
boy: to be the one kissing you in the rain.
swallow your tears && hide your frown
never let life bring you down <3
No. No, you can’t. stop. Please don’t go away. Please? No one’s ever stuck with me so long before. And if you leave, if you leave, I just, I remember things better with you. I do, look. It’s there; I know it is, because when I look at you, I can feel it. And-and, I look at you, and I’m home. Please... I don’t want that to go away. I don’t want to forget. – FINDING NEMO* -Dory
sometimes i wish i could
just open the window and
fly away
& the way you reach for her hand
will always make her smile
looking for perfection?
buy a barbie doll.
searching for love will get you nowhere.. you've got to let it come to you, && then, it's the most beautiful thing in the world.
I really wish people would stop
asking me how I am.
They should know by now
that the answer is "I'm fine"
and I'm getting really tired
of lying all the time.
BUT HOLDING PEOPLE AWAY FROM YOU,
&& DENYING YOURSELF LOVE ;;
THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU STRONG.
IF ANYTHING IT MAKES YOU WEAKER,
BECAUSE YOU'RE DOING IT OUT OF FEAR
people think that if you love somebody hard enough,
then everything is just going to work out.
well, people are wrong.
PART OF ME JUST WANTS TO FIND THE RIGHT WORDS TO HURT YOU,
THE SAME WAY YOU HURT ME.
i know i'm not easy to understand.
i know i keep a lot inside.
&& i know i'm not the easiest person to read.
but that's okay, you know.
because even though there's a lot about me you'll never know,
there's a hell a lot more of me you can learn to love
have you ever wondered which hurts the most ;;
saying something && wishing you hadn't?
or saying nothing && wishing you had?
i guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
if you do, they might break your heart.
if you don't, you might break theirs.
have you ever decided not to become a couple,
because you were so afraid of losing what you already had?
your heart decides whom it likes && whom it doesn't.
you can't tell your heart what to do.
it does it on it's own when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person does not care as much, or even at all?
have you ever denied your feelings for someone,
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
we tell lies when we are afraid.
afraid of what will be found out about us.
but every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
life is al about risks && it requires you to jump.
don't be a person who has to look back,
&& wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
what would you do if every time you fell in love, you had to say good-bye?
what would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
what would you do if your best friend died tomorrow,
&& you never got to tell them how you felt?
what would you do if you loved someone more than ever && couldn't have them?
what would you do if you never got the change to say,
"I am friends with all of my family, && they know I love them"??
Sure people live,
But people die.
You && Me were once a fairytale in love,
But no happily ever after.
Just a beautiful disaster.
&& I'll hide behind words of poets,
because I'm not strong enough to write them myself.
I have to ask you a question.
It's a good one, so think about it.
If two people love each other,
But they can't seem to get it together,
When do you get to that point of enough is enough?
I miss you already, but don't turn around.
It's funny how you know when it just won't work,
&& How letting go can echo the sweetest sound.
I'm tired of smiling, when I'm sad.
I'm tired of laughing, when I'm mad.
I'm tired of hiding the real me.
But I'm too scared of what others will see.
The smile on my face is so fake,
That even Barbie is jealous.
People point at her,
Laugh at her,
&& Talk about her.
All because she's not like
The rest of the followers in life.
Ok, I'ma work on updating. There's been a lot going on. Sorry. Hope you like the update.
xo <3 jess [<3's damian] | | |
| remember when you used to sing to me
on the phone? you weren't that good
but i admit i still kinda miss it <3
She parades around in diamonds and pearls.
A glamour girl drenched in sweetness
and bags beneath her sunglass covered eyes.
its almost like you had it planned; its like
you smiled and shook my hand and said
"hey, im about to screw you over big time"
when a girl hates you,
in the way that she hates you,
it really means that she likes you.
thats basic kindergarten psychology.
It's not that you're losing your friends,
It's that you're finally figuring out who
your true friends really are...
Of course we'll meet new people and fall in love again.
Of course we're gonna hate each other and seek
out to hurt each other but we'll always have a history
that won't let us forget about each other no
matter how much we want to. <33
I believed all the lies.
And it ruined it us.
Funny thing is,
They didn't come from you.
I just like to smile,
smiling's my favorite =)
i'm annoying and i hold grudges
you're paranoid and overprotective.
<3 let's fall in love <3
he's so confusing, some of the things he says to me makes me believe that he really does still like me, and then some other things he says makes me believe that im just a girl that never crosses his mind.
one more thing kid
you'll never find another me </3
There's a fine line between lover and friend:
reality and pretend:
hello and goodbye:
smile and cry:
what you wanted and what you got:
being together and not.
the gossip was true,
they were in love <33
he asked me if I was alright
and, shocked, I looked at him.
after ignoring me all day.
"you ripped out my heart.
threw it on the ground.
and jumped on it several times
yeah I'm alright. dumbass."
I don't need a blade to bear my scars.
I think my eyes are enough. <33
i thought we had something
i thought you liked me
well, it seemed like it
the way you'd stare at me that way...it seemed kind of obvious
i can't believe i fell for your stupid act
cus it`s so fake.
all that cliche stuff, i hate it.
i hate feeling like everyone knows the secret handshake but me.
I can't say I don't miss you, because whenever I think about you, my heart breaks all over again. But iI'm happy you're with her....she deserves to get her heart stomped on </3
sometimes apologies don't mean a thing. like at four in the morning when you're in bed sleeping. you don't need a phone conversation to wake you up to bring you down. cause when it's over, we both know.
&& so you left the best thing that ever happened to you.
in hopes of finding something better. well you'll miss me.
**i promise**
friend 1: did you see her today? i don't think i saw her without a smile on her face the whole day!
friend 2: yeah, she talked to him again.
friend 1: i knew it.
I still believe
Someday you and me
We'll find ourselves
In love again <33
Just when i've moved on and stopped loving you, you come back and say sorry. I remember your smile. your laugh. your eyes. and i float back to where i was before because im too fucking stupid to think he'd do it again. </3
the beauty of this all is that even though there's been so much pain, we will always end up together <33
The day he realizes who he should really be with,
might be the day she tells him he's waited to long. <33
don't fall for the one who kisses your ass,
fall for the one who pushes your buttons & pisses you off.
It's the way he looks at me sometimes :: the way he stares,
when he smiles at me when he thinks I'm not looking,
how he acknowledges my presence ::
that makes me wonder if he likes me too
Everyone looks at me different now.
It's like i have a sign on my back saying
"Fragile, handle with care. She might try to kill herself again".
When the distractions are gone,
I'll have to face what i've become
found? i found somthing i thought
i'd never find. i found someone
who loved me
Smart girls are more concerned
about having fun
then looking p e r f e c t.
To be honest ever since you said forever,
I never pictured a moment of my life without you in it
you can't stay mad at someone
who makes you laugh
· Something· . ·happens· .
· when you look at me I forget ·
to speak something happens when
You kiss my mouth my knees get so
weak could dis be true is this what
· God has meant for me cause ·
Baby I can't Believe... that
· Something lyke You ·
could happen
· to me ·
*
Ok, I just wanted to apologize for not updating in so long. I've just been super busy lately. And I've also been really sick. I have to go back to the doctor's tomorrow. Hopefully everything's ok. hope you like the upadate tho. Enjoy
xo <3 jess [<3's damian] | | |
| One day
your name just didn’t
make me smile.
so this is who you really are.
to think i trusted you.
and now your words mean nothing to me.
'cause your actions speak the truth.
behind the bad reputation and the horrible rumors
is the girl that she really is. the girl people don't
take the time to get to know.
your so fucked up-
your a fucking mess
Am I the only girl that’s not impressed with -pick up lines-
am I the only girl that doesn't respond to "Hey Sexy"
am I the only girl that wants more than that?
Goodbye, drama. Hello, I don't give a shit.
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past,
stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisly
how we'feel, stop deciding with our minds exactly
what we want our hearts to feel, sometimes we
just have to go with the flow and just enjoy life.
she knew she could never be good enough...
but for some reason -- she tried any way...
... & I love how nothing went right today
HiS FiNGER TRACED i L0VE Y0U
iN THE PALM 0F MY HAND <3
THAT'S THE 0NLY TiME
MY ST0MACH HAS EVER
HiT THE FL00R LiKE THAT
When you look at me, it's like you're secretly trying to tell me not to give up hope. But i want you to know something, i almost have.
I hate the way you can push me to the limits with the things you do. and then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall for you all over again..
She hides it well, don't you think? Behind every smile with every blink, falls a tear so cold and hurt with every whisper, every look. No questions asked, why or how... they never cared. Then and now, she hides it well.
Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. But I've learned that life is like an hour glass of sand. Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom, but all you have to do is be patient and wait for something to turn everything around.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years... or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning
I wanna go back to believing in everything, and knowing nothing at all.
I feel like I've tried so long to be happy, and the more I try, the more that goal slips from my reach. It's almost like quicksand where the more you struggle, the more submerged you become. I've given up on everything. Nothing matters to me anymore. Especially myself. The part of my life that matters least to me is myself. 'Cos I'm no one, and I always have been.
I don't know how much longer I can handle this life that I'm living. I'm so tired of everything and I'm not sure how much longer I can be that person.
I've been broken before, I know what it feels like to see something funny and not laugh.
there are moments when I can`t stand what we go
through. but then there are moments when I can`t
stand the thought of * [ not having you ] * <33
people ask me why it's so hard to trust people,
& i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise.
it's a little obvious darling,
i'm trying to make you fall for me.
She makes look like she has it all together,
But behind her "everything's ok"s
And "I'm just tired, ok?"s,
Theres something else
She barely makes it thru these days.
"I'm not in the mood for your teenage bullshit drama."
yeah, and I'm not in the mood for your fucking overused lines.
How come I can remember
every single hurtful word you
said to me, but i can't remember
the answers to a fucking test?
i wish you`d open your BiG BR0WN EYES
and look the fuck around ..
maybe you`d notice she is absolutely craazy
about you
You're a jerk, an asshole, and immature.
You don't make sense, and sometimes I just wanna
strangle you. But on top of that..I just wanted
to let you know that you are my everything..and that will never change.
I can't deny it. I am who I am. I'm pretty normal.
I'm not that smooth type of girl. I run into things.
I trip. I spill food. I say stupid things.
I really don't have it all together
love yourself first... he'll come around <3
i sometimes wish i could forget the past
even if that means i wouldn't remember you </3
look into her eyes,
you'll see all her dreams.
look a little harder.
she's not all she seems.
she's everything you need. <3
she's been stuck in the stereotype of
a pretty little girl who's always happy
and never does anything wrong...}i{
You know your not the only one this hearts been longing for.
And i know it kills you but you had your chance.
And you wasted it. You wasted it all on HER.
So tell me babe, do you still think she was worth it?
&& you know that when he stares at you for longer then a second, he`s thinking about you <3
yeah, i`m over you.
but I still have you
on my buddylist,
&& i still smile when
you sign on...<33
Sometimes, no matter how much you like him,
you've just got to realize that the drama he comes
with is just so not worth it .. <3
Be optimistic. all the people you
hate now will eventually die. =)
Who I was last year &
Who I am this year
Are 2 totally different people.
So stop getting them confused.
OH && JUST iNCASE iF Y0U WERE W0NDERiNG
YES, MY FRiENDS ARE BETTER THAN Y0URS
Beauty disguises what it's holding back
Some days when her eyes shine, her thoughts are black
Let's never talk about this again because I didn't want it to mean this much to me.
you learn a lot about people
when you listen to the songs
that mean something to them.
Hope you like the update.
xo <3 Jess | | |
| It's funny how you go through the year and nothing seems to change but when you look back, everything is different. It's amazing that no matter how much we tell ourselves that we won't change for anyone, we always seem to. And no matter how much we say we won't care what they think about us, it's the number one thing on our minds. If you look at how I used to be and you look at me now, you'll realize I'm not the same girl I used to be. All of this shit got to me. I've always avoided fights. I make jokes instead. I tell people what they want to hear just to avoid confrontation. I pretend to want things I don't want and I pretend not to want things I do want. No one gets hurt except me. The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don't know what I want. I just know I want it to be easy... And sometimes it's easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings. Sometimes it's easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. Sometimes it's easier to be numb towards certain people so I don't let them get too close. Sometimes I'm scared, but when I act numb towards *you*, it doesn't mean I don't care it means I care too much.
There's always some reason not to feel good ... or have a good day.
&&I heard them say ::
"I miss the old, happy-go-lucky, girl."
When will it finally hit them ;;
That's just not me anymore.
honey, this is what happens when you fall in love. you're looking at a natural disaster <l3
I'm nowhere near perfect; I eat when
I'm bored; I fall for boys too easily; I'm
vulnerable to believing lies; I'm hoping
that one day I don't need a fake smile &&
made up stories to get someone to like me;
I live by quotes & lyrics that explain exactly what
I'm going through & I make up excuses for
everything. I have my best friends && my
enemies; drama & memories. I'm just your
average typical teenager... </3
sometimes you just feel
everything and nothing all at once.
sometimes you'll find yourself smiling
while missing something at the same time.
at time you can absouletly love a person,
all the while wanting to hate them.
life comes without guarantees.
except that smiling will brighten your face,
laughing will enhance your eyes,
and falling in love will change your life. <33
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor
Head down to hide the tears
I've finally realized
that you were never meant for me.
i've discovered as i've grown up that
life is far more complicated than you
think when you're a kid. it isn't just a
straightforward fairy tale.
-rachel mcadams-
A beautiful girl with gorgeous eyes
Hidden in a world full of hurt and lies...
I'm sorry for staring at you
it's just that your smile
makes me smile
If someone tells you "it will be okay" it's because
it's tearing them up inside to see you torn apart
Those midnight conversations..
They mean everything to me
anyone can fall in love
but only amazing people
can continue to love after
their heart has been broken
i really dont care, what you think whore....
Waiting till tommorow won't make the problem any better
Ill do anything
Just to get my mind off you
Is this what being depressed feels like?
praying to god every minute of the day
so you dont burst into tears?
and at night not falling asleep
until you see 11:11
so you can wish you never wake up?
well...
thats what im going through right now,
but i just cant seem to explain why
when im sitting all alone in my room..
all i think about is you
Shes not the kind of girl to tell the world
how she feels about herself
lets kiss in the rain;;
where the rain is so hard
and we can only see
e a c h o t h e r
i could be in the absolute worst mood
ever & not want to talk to anyone.. but boy,
do my feelings change when i see your
b e a u t i f u l f a c e <3
he`s the kind of guy that makes
you love your name.. just because
of the way he says it <33
if he takes time to argue with you then
he cares more then you think he does.
bOyS are like hEelS *
so many different ones to choose from that look cute.. but they all hurt.
THERE'S A DiFFERENCE BEtWEEN
l0VE&liKE,
WR0NG & RiGHt.
NEVER RUN iF Y0U'RE N0t
READY T0 StEP,
& NEVER F0RGiVE
iF Y0U'RE
N0t READY T0 F0RGEt. `*;
Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you"
was a complete & total moron.
Cause..for most people I know,
not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.
-Grey`s Anatomy
B O T T O M _ L i N E ;
if you want me, you'll show it.
no camara could capture the smile she had
on her face the day he told her he still loved her.
if i don't make your heart
s k i p a b ea t
then hate me.
When we hugged for over a minute that's because I never wanted to let you walk away.
You can only be stabbed in the chest so many times before you realize "gee, this really hurts" and get up and walk away
If you take your love away from me I'll go crazy.
I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.
You cut to forget something/someone. Someone else
would eat a whole lot of chocolate when they
don't feel so happy; you lock yourself up and
try to cut your memories away. You look like a
normal person, 'till someone brings up things
you don't want to think about. But it's hard to
forget things you are completely obsessed with,
isn't it
Hope you like the update.
xo <3 Jess [<3's Damian] | | |
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