God are you there
And if you are what do you care about all my fears keeping me here
Calling out your name am I calling out in vain
Wondering why, you don't hear my cry
I cant understand what you're doing
It's not my place to question your ways
Lord give me a glimpse of where you're going
Let me follow, follow you today

But I feel like I'm lost in December
So far from the world I used to know
But can you see me, I'm dying in this winter
Or is this just part of the narrow road

Can't understand when I reach for your hand
Your love can be found, seems you're not around
Hearing of your perfect will
Never knowing why I still cant see your face, can't feel your grace
Wishing that the questions weren't so painful
But I'm longing to find your truth
Knowing that the answers aren't so simple
Lord I'm needing to see a glimpse of you

But I feel like I'm lost in December
So far from the world I used to know
But can you see me, I'm dying in this winter
Or is this just part of the narrow road

How soon I forget that the story's not over yet
It's late one December night
And God broke this silence with the sound of the child that would save us
Filling the world with his light

But I feel like I'm lost in December
(Oh my child I hear you)
So far from the world I used to know
(You're not alone)
But can you see me I'm dying in this winter
(I will always be with you)
Or is this just part of the narrow road
(Wherever you go)
Oh my child I hear you
But you're not alone
I will always be with you
Wherever you go

-David Hodges

 Another song that is very meaningful to me, although this one stretches over the last couple of years, and still comes to me whenever "I feel like I'm lost in December..."

Yes, the "next big happening" that we have been anticipating and busy preparing for has occured...

 We will be together as a family for two weeks.

Blessed be the name of the Lord!

 I was blessed to catch the look on Uriah's face, as he deposited his jacket on top of dad's...

it was one I can't even begin to describe...

I have decided that you are all probably sick of reading my poor attempts at posting. So, I decided to take Traci’s comment literally and act on it.

  "Sarah, when in doubt just post the conversations that you have in your head with yourself.. you know, the little voices that chatter back and forth at 4am switching between the topics of bridesmaids dresses, poison ivy blisters and daydreams of ivory soap, lol.  At least we'd be entertained, lol."

 You might be wondering what she is talking about- I shall inform you. I'll just give you a little background into it. Because if this post doesn't confirm my insanity, posting the above mentioned "conversations" just might. I would like you to continue to believe that I am at least partly "normal" (what is that anyhow, I have been dying to know lately!)

 So...........

I have been hanging out on my bed for a week, today. I seem to have come in contact with an oil called Urushiol. Have you heard of it perhaps? It is more commonly known as poison ivy. :) I came in contact with it two weeks ago this Wednesday and began to show signs of it the very next day, but I wasn’t forced to take to my bed until Monday. Mine developed into a particually blistered type. Pretty nasty, eh? I’m glad you didn’t have to be here to see it...although on second thought, some of you have been. My poor family shudders every time they look at me, the boys took to calling the blisters “The Rockies”, and you should see the look of horror that crosses poor Uriah’s face every time he thinks he has gotten too close or touched anything that I have. I have decided that it is a good thing that I am such a fan of my room, since I have been spending so much time in it (which is pretty unusual for me.) I actually still like it...although I’m ready to leave it. :) It is pretty scary, it has only been a week, but I am already having a hard time remembering when my legs didn’t have massive blisters, or when I didn’t wear running shorts everyday. –lol It is funny how little time has to pass before something new begins to feel normal. I have begun to call my blisters, my new “friends” and have decided that they just like me so much that they don’t want to leave me. ;) A pretty vain approach, huh? And slightly mad sounding, but one probably does begin to go a tad bit mad after so much time in one’s room. This is what else I have been up to during this time...

  I have done lots of thinking, have watched only a couple of movies, written some letters, read and journaled a little bit, laid awake a lot at night (or sometimes used the computer! Lol Resulting in some of you getting comments from me at crazily late, er, I mean early, hours), gone through some magazines that I needed to, and I have done some entertaining- Rachel joined me in my “sick room” a couple nights last week as her brother’s worked on our roof. She was kind enough to sit in a folding chair set up especially for visitors, and even braved having to look at the ghastly sight formerly known as my legs. We had fun discussing plans for her upcoming wedding, and we watched some of my Martha Stewart Weddding dvd’s. I knew when I bought those so cheap last year that I would need them before long!!! I just didn’t know how soon or how much. ;) God has been so good to me throughout this time, and I seem to be free from infection or anything like that...and this is so little in comparsion to so many other real tragedies that I could be expierencing. Plus, something big is happening this week, and I have had lots of time to process it and look forward to it while lying in bed...I will be telling you about that when it happens. :) I am bummed that I feel so useless. That is not a pleasant feeling. There is so much I can’t do, and I have had to watch my mom do everything last week as the boy’s roofed & etc. And we have so much to do to prepare for this next big happening. Hopefully I can work on some things for that tomorrow.  :)

 Oh, and Elise came today, and sat in the visitor’s chair too...and she had the right idea, she put a cushion on it. Sorry Rachel, should’ve thought of that!

That is what I have been up to in a little itty bitty nutshell. Frankly it has been an interesting expierence, and I only pray that I can walk (-lol literally and figuratively) away when it is all over,  gaining what the Lord would have me from it. Oh and thank goodness that I have a little over a month until I am in Joanna and Curtiss’ wedding...and that the dresses are floor length!!! I can’t imagine if they went only to the knee- Joanna might want to find herself another bridesmaid if that was the case. ;)

 Thank you to all of you that have been praying for me!! I’ll keep you informed, and let you all know when my very devoted  new “friends” decide to leave, and if I regain my sanity. –lol

 Goodbye from me...and all of “them” also. =)

 (disclaimer: I do believe that this is the first day that I have showed slight signs of insanity, so I don’t think that we have anything to worry about, since I think and hope that I am on the upswing now.)

:)