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Here it is, ladies and gentlemen: my pivotal FINAL XANGA ENTRY.
I turned 18 today, (actually, xanga will say it was yesterday by making this entry wednesday...even though it isn't yet) and with that, turned over the chapter of my life from teenager...to adult. I am shouldering much more responsibility in my life now, and therefore have decided to adopt the attitude that goes with it. I know most of you won't read this, just skim over a few words and write little trites in my comment box, mulling over this or that, and I don't pretend to care if you do any of the above or not. But, for the sake of my has-been teenage years, I will wirte this one, final note.
I have decided that this...thing should have been terminated long ago. It has done nothing to me or my fellows other than spread discord and falsities, ensuring that tongues will wag, and often. I wish so much that I could have purged myself of this online menace earlier, because particularly within the confines of this year, and even the last few weeks, it has done little but to serve as a springboard for the most outrageous claims. I admit that I liked using this to vent...but, I have friends and family for that; I don't NEED this thing. I don't WANT this thing. So, I'm abandoning it, just like my name says, "forever." I have wasted too much of my time on this pathetic piece of internet filth, and I really don't know why I ever cared whether or not people read about what 'sandwich I had for lunch today,' or 'why my homework wasn't done.' I certainly don't anymore. I am now going to make more use of my time; my energies are better served elsewhere than here, even though this be a long entry. Summer's end came untimely and all too soon, of course, (as did my senior year.) And so, now after spending I think 703 days on this online journal of idiotic dribble; I will leave my xanga, for more worthwhile pursuits.
And, the funny thing is: I won't miss it at all.
I'm tired of the petty quarrels this thing has brought about; I'm tired of girls I don't know, whom I didn't know knew me, coming up to me in the hallways between classes and telling me about what they read about me on Sharon Somebody's xanga, or how John Everyman posted how he was madly in love with me; I'm tired of posting stupid things on here that just come up to bite me in the ass later, through no fault BUT my own; I'm tired of coming here and then getting spammed by some nobody that decided they hated me, because Bitchface McGee and her horde of idiot friends don't like my use of punctuation, and then me getting angry and making it escalate; I'm tired of stupid people posting mostly nude photos of themselves on here in order to gain attention because they are so pathetic themselves that's all they can think of to do;I'm tired of people calling me and telling me that so-and-so had read a post I made and they and whatever stupid clique they belong to now hate me; I'm tired...of...well, I'm just plain tired of it all. THE DRAMA IS SOOOO STUPID, PEOPLE!! SAVE IT AND GO INTO THEATRE IF THAT'S REALLY WHAT YOU'RE INTO!!! Oh, and what really irks me is ppl who write lik ths n thurr xanga entrees becuz they kin't spel werth a shyt n donte paye atenchen n inglish class, n there, lik, MYE age, or yungerr, n r reely badd spelars! so thaye deeside 2 enfect the wurld with there reely badd gramr n write lik this!
And now, with that aside, hopefully, I will go into my senior year not as a naive girl, (as the last few years of my life have suggested,) but as a woman, ready to take on the life I've dreamt about since my elementary school years. I await the not-so-far-off-day *gasp* when I decide what college I'm going to, graduate from it....and then...I can turn over the pages to a fresh, clean section...and begin my new life, wherever, and with whomever that may be.
***I would also like to thank my INCREDIBLE, amazing, loving, kick-ASS family for the best birthday/presents/truffle cake ever, and for spending waaaaaaay TOO MUCH money on my birthday, and of course to my wonderful, adoring, sweet, understanding boyfriend for his marvelous contribution to my now, (rather large) pile of birthday presents***
I wish you all luck in your future endeavours, as I hope you will wish me. I look forward to this year with growing anticipation, because I am, after all, a Senior.
Good-bye, xanga. Once you were friend, but now foe. I leave you and this chapter of my life behind me. Farewell, I bid you all, dear, dear xanga readers: adieu.
"In the end,
shadow is
but a passing thing."
-J.R.R. Tolkein
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