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I don't really know what to say tonight. I feel better in the fact that I have had more sleep and am not as emotional as I was. The underlying loneliness and despair is still there. I spent the day contemplating and exam…
I was expressly told by Dave not to write this. He said that it was only going to make things worse. If I don't get my feelings out I am going to explode. I have been hit with loneliness and despair. I am angry, but not…
"Give me the grace good Lord, To set the world a nought, To set my mind fast upon thee. And not to hang upon the blasts of men's mouths. To be content to be solitary, Not to long for worldly company, Little a…
What do you think of my new colors? The picture is from one of the gardens at Capernwray. I needed to be reminded, I miss that place.
Happy Thanksgiving!!! Last night Dave and I had much to talk about. Life, family, work, ministry and of course girls. He helped me come to a decision on if I should peruse a certain young lady. I came to a conclusion…
Ahhhh... a night to myself. I can't say that I haven't enjoyed the last few days spending time with my friends, but I do need some time alone now and then. No new discoveries or decisions. Just the same wrestling match.…
Even though I try to be tough, Amy, the letter you just sent me brought a tear to my eye and joy to my heart! Thanks
Tonight is the first night that I came home and wanted to jump right into my site. I think I am getting into this. Something that has hit me today is the fact that I have some AWSOME friends! I can't really put it into …
Again, it is late. I really want to stay in the habit of writing in this every night. I am very frustrated. Dealing with romantic part of our human condition drives me crazy. I know that I like her, but I over think i…
Okay, a late night posting. Sometimes my mind is a bit different late at night or early in the morning, but let's give it a shot. It is interesting how being around people I care about can make me so happy, but at the …
I am not sure if anyone is actually reading this site, but it is good for me to write on it even if no one reads it. The past couple of days have not been the greatest. I have been a bit under the weather and took some…
Today was just a day. I don't really like "just days". No real passion, nothing too special. Just a day. Last night was great. I spent some time with Jesus. Just talking. Having a real coversation with My Lord! The …
Wow, It has been a long time since I posted anything. It is time that I start getting things out. I don't really feel that there is anyone who I can reveal these things to. I don't know if that is a short coming of th…