Tuesday, May 06, 2008

• It should be known that I actually write these blogs for myself more than anything else. I think its interesting to look back at who I was a year ago and see how much things have changed.

  Lately, it seems like most of the people in my life are mirrors. I can see things about myself in other people and I don't like it. And of course, people also bring out the good in me. I just think there are some things I need to work on.

  I've been thinking a lot about how this is an odd season in my life. I tend to feel purposeless. Maybe from the move and the change in life. I do understand that I still have purpose, its just not as blunt. But even still in this feeling of meaninglessness, I am feeling very optimistic. Its really very strange. Every now and then I do crash. I will quietly turn into this sobbing mess where I ask myself why I am here (in Seattle) and what I am doing with my life. And then I'm not so sure of what the answers are.

  And really, I'm tired of complaining. My life is what I make it. And if I choose to sit around and whine about it, then I deserve what I have and I will go no where.

  I didn't leap across the nation to think about what should have been.
  I moved across the nation because this is where I am supposed to be.
  And I should really take advantage of this before it takes advantage of my weaknesses.

  Hollar.

  PS. Seattle is awesome.

   

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