Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
don't get me wrong, i think it's great person A and person B are dating. on top of that, I think it's great that person C and D are together. but what I don't get is how I am still the last girl in fourth year in our fellowship to not be not single?
i'm sure singlehood is a blessing, but eventually, everyone moves on, and you'll want to be loved and because of your beliefs, your dating pool of available and qualified men becomes a pool of random huge number 'a' to random drastically smaller number 'b'.
I don't mind being single. I mind being single alone with no other fourth year girls. now, i'm not saying randomly break up, i'm just confused as to how i cannot accept the fact that i am still miserably single.
i am not desparate, i am just not patient to wait on God's instruction.
sooner or later, i will become consumed with a job, dance and my current intermediate familly responsibilities. later i will get invited to more weddings of A and B and maybe later C and D and later E and F. E and F, since when did that happen? Apparently it happens and I'm just ill-informed.
Later on, my singleness shall prolong for until I age to 40, where I will die by the hand of a pseudo-ninja, and come to realize, my life was miserable and lonely, and just realize that really, NO ONE WANTED ME THE WHOLE TIME.
Then again, maybe single life is not horrible and I just can't find that invisible silver lining.
don't be sad kim!! you're wanted and loved!!! =D i know how you feel.. i feel that way a lot.. especially when my sister comes home with a new boyfriend or something.. and then everyone around me is talking about relationships... >.<.. but don't worry.. cuz you know what? maybe God has a special plan for you to become a missionary? it's hard to go on mission trips with a family even though it is possible. you never know!!
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don't be sad kim!! you're wanted and loved!!! =D i know how you feel.. i feel that way a lot.. especially when my sister comes home with a new boyfriend or something.. and then everyone around me is talking about relationships... >.<.. but don't worry.. cuz you know what? maybe God has a special plan for you to become a missionary? it's hard to go on mission trips with a family even though it is possible. you never know!!