Wednesday, March 26, 2008

• "There is no answer fit to satisfy"

  

   I wanted to write one last time before I try to escape, typing mixed up thoughts to a handful of strangers no longer seeming to help me. I am starting afresh. I need to think more of where I am going, less of what has already been- changing school, taking things further with X, changing my outlook on life.

  Obviously I am as sceptical as most that I will succeed in overcoming the burdens that choke me, yet I am not one to throw my hands up in despair before I even try. As I sit here now, the sky gray, the cold air rushing through my open windows, I feel strangely calm, as though maybe I can change.

  Hopefully this positivity will last, I will lose the 13 lbs I always plan to, and I can leave with all loose strings neatly tied. There are no words fit to satisfy how I feel, but I simply want to be happy.

  xx

   

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