Monday, May 12, 2008

• "The smoky morning haze, the sun on her face"

  

  I have been working out everyday recently; swimming, running, doing weights, pilates and going to the gym. I haven't felt the need to eat much in this hot weather here, and instead have spent endless hours by the poolside on a lounger, sipping iced water and revising for exams. Honestly I am trying to do anything but let my mind wonder to the friendships I broke.

  It was the final day of school on Friday, and I said things to a close friend I maybe shouldn't have said, but I had to. She wondered why I was suddenly yelling at her and some other friends, telling them I couldn't be around them. She failed to understand that I can't best friend spend time with people who treat my other friends people like shit, and instead thought I was telling her how to act.

  It was a bad day, and I lost another friend because of it. This second friendship ruined was the one that hurt me, because I had been honest with her, and I think she had been open with me too. Then she told me on the phone that she couldn't understand why I had been mean to her best friend. I thought I was also a best friend. But maybe not.

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