| Okay so senior summer so far? Relaxing but yet a series of emotional rollercoasters. One minute I'm laughing so much that I'm out of breath and the other I'm crying so vehemently that my stomach hurts. It's ironic how two actions so opposite like crying and laughing share the same effects: stomach hurting and feeling out-of-breath. Is it because of these two feelings that I have experienced simultaneously this week that I'm feeling light-headed right now? I feel myself burning up and coughing at random moments. Not a good thing since my orientation,the highlight of this summer, starts tommorrow at 5am. I'm glad marian's coming with me :) I'm glad I rekindled with her last summer because she has been a big sister to me even she and I are complete opposites yet similar. Bad luck + good luck= fun?
This year has been fun even though my grades have gone down downhill! I'm glad I have met those I met this year although I feel myself separating from the group right now. I don't know what's wrong with me but people have been a phase for me. Every year or series of years I break apart from one group yet continue my friendship with one person from that group. I know it's time for me to break apart from this one, even though I really thought this group was going to be with me for life. And I know who's going to be the one I'll continue talking to.
Thank god(or the being that's out there) for you. I never met anyone except my parents who have cared enough for me to come to my house at 9am (even though I know you usually wake up at 3pm) to see if I'm still mad or rushing out of your family thing just to see me for two hours. I love you a lot and thank you for replacing that missing part in me with your love. No one has made me ever laugh so much just by being themselves. That ny trip was enlightening, just like mm. That's all I can say about it.
I have been in a slum since I got back from it. Everyone has been out doing their own thing, being too busy for me to hang out with them. I really like staying home. It has been so relaxing. I love just sitting there watching tv or putting the music on scrapbooking. July 4th: thanks kenny for inviting me. I really didn't want to put myself in that awkward situation with her. Everywhere I go I keep encountering her, whether it be in person or people who know her. I feel as if everyone who knows her are going to judge me because of the things she says about me. That's partly the reason I have cried more these few months than my whole 17 years since birth.
But it's okay because hopefully next year I'll have a group of new friends. I'm so excited that I have anissa as my roommate even though were living in nasty dykstra. We can survive it :)
And I'm excited for everyone I'm going to ucla with. I'm not super close to them but close enough. I wanted normy to go there with me :(
My motto to live: everything happens for a reason. People go into your life for a reason; some leave footprints some just pass by. However footprints tend to fade. But know that you have the rest of your life to replace those footprints with imprints that will remain forever.
Right now I'm looking for those who will give me as much as I gave those I know now. I
Why do I always end up not feeling complete? As if I am never reciprocated for the things I do for them. Sigh I guess I will never know.
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| Fall rally was super. I saw all my old friends. WOW Marian, I haven't seen her in 3 years?! Laurie, Lil, Mag and syl in like 1 year. Wow awesome huh?! I getting huggable. i hugged like so many people. Did i tell you?! I went on Batman. I was so nervous. But it was so fun but so scarrry. I was scared to death when I was on the ride. The loop and the twirls and wow that was scary. haha log ride scared me to death too. I jumped off my seat when we were coming down. We lost in the thing cuz we were confused and didn't know what to do. I beat my yellow stick to death so I had only a blue stick left. I couldn't make noise with it. I cheered so loud but my voice wasn't lost. Eileen's was though. It was funny how kenny couldn't tell the diff. between our voices. OH MAN I saw Kenny after how many years?! How coolio. Next time I'm going on... Viper or Collossus. Roaring rapids closed down.. I'm so sad. I seriously need to catch up with people. Maggie still needs to tell me about James or Jason right? something like that. Syl, you better invite me over for thanksgiving or I'm ditching you guys and going to my favorite state (you know where it is ). I can't wait for next year's fall rally. WOOHOO. Oh yea. Never be squished with a bunch of your rivals. Those koalas were mean. Ok we were late to go to the rally so we just HAD to squish between 1000+ koala people who were our rivals and go through them. I seriously don't see the point in that. Why couldn't we have just wait -_- stupid stupid stupid. I was so squished I couldn't even breathe. |
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