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| new chapter in my lifeso i have written a lot of "down" stuff. well things are changing. i hate to admit that my mood changes with my situations but they do. about 2 weeks ago i got a random call from a friend of mine asking if i still needed a job and a place to live.... the answer was yes to both of them. i had an interview on a monday got the job the same day and by wed i dove with both feet into a new job. one in which i am loving i feel like i am in my element. i am working as a residential advisor for a foreign exchange christian boarding school. how cool is that!!! i have been with the kids now about a week they started school on tues and i have learned a lot. there are 11 different countries here and 42 students with more to arrive soon and then more in jan. i also have had invitations to india, uganda, and thailand for the summer. wow. and there is 9 months of this. the only downfall so far is lack of sleep and i don't want to see when my bills come. i do need to find another job while the kids are in school but the higher ups at the school are looking to "make" a job for me to help with the difference from the stipend they give us. but i need to stick with this there room for huge potential in many ways. | | |
| confused more than ever. trying to get back on track hahahaha i want to loose weight. been really focused on it again.. kinda scary i have been working out all the time again (except today raining) freaked out the other day at valerios because i couldnt figure what to order.
i have been trying to focus on god and nature too. taking hikes it asbury bike at the beach. sitting and contemplating at buttermilk falls.
had a good talk with aaron the other day (my ex) we are just friends but hate to say my heart is still his.
was sort of seeing another guy put that on hold because i cant move why drag him along. we had fun together but not a christian. still friends he wants more. not gonna happen.
stressing over job, $, needing a place to live, future, to stay in erie or not, and of course my weight (which i hate), there is tons more but these are the main issues right now
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| still living and stillconfused. finally canceling wedding plans, still looking for a job still dealing with aaron stuff. we went to dinner last night. i started see someone else but felings arent there at all
such is life | | |
| still living dealing with life! | | |
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