Wednesday, November 28, 2007

• at home with my dog

  i didn't realize what this feeling was. i want to let go of everything. i don't want to have anything between us. i just want to be closer. i think being here alone made me realize how much i love him. i remember when i was thinking about myself; how i wanted to go out and have fun, how i wanted to have friends to talk to, and how i wanted to meet new people in my life. and after sitting here with my dog Gino.. though he was sleeping on my bed, i got this different feeling. i wasn't thinking about going out, or calling my friends, or even making new friends. all i could think about was him. and it is such an overwhelming feeling that i feel like i'm knocked off balance. it's such an incredible emotion running its course through me right now. all i can do is smile and feel like crying at the same time. you know, i looked at myself in the mirror and i remembered how imperfect i am. all my faults and my failures were staring me in the face and it didn't matter, because i know that someone loves me for who i am. and for me, that's enough to make me believe i'm a good person and i have a purpose. i don't know how else i can explain it, i don't think it needs complex words or extensive discussion. it's pretty plain and simple, i'm in love. -Lan

  ps. i can get used to this.

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