It was raining during break this afternoon, so instead of going on a walk, I fixed a cup of tea and relaxed in my office.
I have an office.
I have tea.
I have a lot of things that I shouldn't, things I never earned and don't deserve.
I
can't believe that I'm a copy editor, that I have a great apartment
with great roommates, that I have such wonderful friends, that I
graduated college, that I even
went to college . . . None of it
should've happened.
I say that to say that God is amazing.
At any moment, my life could have gone a hundred different ways, it
seems. One decision here, one decision there, and maybe I could've been a
pastry chef in West Virginia or a cattle rancher in Minnesota. Who
knows!
The thing is, I'm following God plan. A lot of times,
I don't know where he's leading me. When I decided to graduate high
school early, I had no idea that it would take me to Campbell and place
me in the path of such incredible friends and great professors. When I
moved to Greensboro, I didn't know that I would be given such a fitting
job and a genuine church community.
Have you ever studied pointillism? All I see are those tiny spots of color; sometimes they go together, and
sometimes they seem wildly out of place. I don't know why they're put
where or when they are. I can't see the big picture. God sees,
though. The colors blend, the image is purposeful and perfect, and it
all glorifies him. I never thought this is where I'd be, but I love
it. I love it because I know it's where he wants me. It's where I
belong.
God is teaching me so much! I'm constantly learning about what it
means to have faith and trust him. My plans are never as good as his;
my wants pale in comparison
to his blessings. He is so much greater; his plan is so much better.
He's amazing. He tells me to go, but he doesn't always tell me why I'm
going. Even if he did, I probably wouldn't believe it; I would doubt;
I'd tell him that it would never work. But it does work. When 15-year-old me desired to go to church again, God knew
that it would lead to 21-year-old me drinking tea in my office and
contemplating his blessings. He knows where I was, where I am, and where
I will be.
He knows, guys.
Are you seeing the theme here?
He's amazing!
"A man's steps are from the Lord; how then can man understand his way?" Proverbs 20:24 
