If you could ask your crush three questions, what would they be?

Well it's one thing to ask the questions.  It's quite another to get the answers.  I want the answers, but I would never dare ask the questions.  But I'll play along.

1.  Do you ever think about me enough to wonder whether or not you've made a mistake to move away?
2.  Am I or was I ever lovable in any way to you, be it romantically or otherwise?
3.  Do you miss me as much as I miss you?   

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**My mom's computer hasn't been able to access the net since May.  We thought it was the network not sensing her IP address, so we rebooted our router.  Didn't help.  We even tried to hook her up to the net directly by the actual cable line.  No luck.  Her computer just didn't want to go online, even though it did sense the router was there.  It even showed there were no problems with her connection.  For all those months, she had to access the net via one of my 3 laptops.  And then yesterday, I was like well let me spend some time on her comp and play around with it.  I did a disc cleanup of drive C, which was like...never done apparently.  It took about an hour.  Then I defragmented drive C.  That took maybe 45 minutes.  Then it dawned on me: System checkpoint.  Those little moments where Windows "saves" itself automatically as if you're playing a video game and you save your game at a checkpoint.  So I figured, what the heck?

I found out the last time she was online successfully, and picked a checkpoint that was closest.  Her comp rebooted to that certain point, and voila.  Her computer successfully went online.  So apparently, something happened that shouldn't have happened that corrupted her system.  No telling what it was.  Could have been someoe who downloaded something that shouldn't have been downloaded, or perhaps it was the installation of a new program that tampered with her hard drive.  Can't really say for sure.  All I know is, the mission was a success.  The computer was "placed back in time" so to speak and all is well again.  Mom was quite thrilled.  Linda to the rescue again and I'm not even a computer whiz.  I showed her what I did so she'll know and will have one less reason to summon me.  Checkpoints are easy to access.  And after defragmenting and cleaning up her hard drive, her computer worked a lot more smoothly and quickly too.  Go me.  She wanted to bring my ex back over here to figure it out, since he's the one who installed our network, but I'm like nooooooooo siree! His wife found out that he came over here in the first place and wasn't fond of it since she somehow found out that he and I dated, so I don't wanna be a homewrecker in her eyes.  Fortunately it worked out so we didn't have to contact him.

**My long-distance crush is slowly dissipating the less times I see him.  As expected.  It's been exactly two weeks since I've seen him.  In person, that is.  We sent a few text messages and called a couple of times.  But the latest fun communicating we did was sending video messages.  A fun way to still "see" each other while talking at the same time, even if the vids ARE only 30 seconds long and not crystal clear.  We both had alot of fun the first day we did it and he was the first to say it. The interaction lasted for hours. He introduced his roommate via video and even asked if I wanted to go to the movies to him to see "Clone Wars," a sort of long-distance date.  I laughed at him, but showed willingness.  I don't think he was serious, so I don't think it will happen.  Eh, yeah...he called to kinda plan it out, but I'm like "Yeah...let's just wait until the release day's closer to plan it out, okay?"  It was cute, but I doubt it'll happen.  A couple of days later, I get a vid from himself saying, "So I'm at work and guess who I'm thinking about. Yep. Linda. Hit me up, let me know what you're doing."  I responded back about an hour later.  But then got nothing back.  I sent a second one later in the day while on lunch just randomly, but still nothing. Yesterday, I sent another random one to him just saying I'm bored and that's it's raining, yada yada, nothing special...but nothing.  I haven't gotten anything since that last "thinking about you" vid. I wish I knew why, but I don't want to obsess over it. 

It's just weird and I'm just hoping things are okay with him.  Either something's gone wrong over there, or he just honestly doesn't want to talk to me.  It'd be an inexplicable hault in in our communication, especially despite our last conversation, but it will still be understandable.  I just hope it's not something I'm at fault for.  If it's me, I hope the reason is just because he still doesn't want to get attached, even from a long distance away, and not because I said or did something wrong.  We both knew that life will go on and I was more the person to sorta "push" him at other girls over there, so it can't really be me, could it?  As far as keeping in touch, I tried not to be only one wanting that and have allowed him to make that choice.  And he has.  I'll do my part, but I'd rather it be something he wants, not just me.  Now that there's been no more effort on his part to respond back to me or send something new, I won't send anything more so as not to appear foolishly desperate and naive, if it's something he's doing purposefully.  Heck, it might not even have anything to do with me.  I just wish I was more certain so I CAN know what to do or not do.  Should I reach out as a friend if something really is wrong at the risk of my caring nature coming off as overly fixated on his life?  Or should I continue to back off and leave him be, let him do what he's gotta do without seeming too demanding like he owes me explanations?  I dunno.  I care if something's wrong, but I don't want to reach out to him if he's just trying to push me away for whatever reason, which he has a right to do.  Gah. I'm not gonna think about it anymore cuz it's just exhausting and not worth it.

**My sister has been in Iowa for the past week with our church outreach program helping out flood victims and what happens?  She breaks her ankle playing Volleyball.  Well at least it MAY be broken.  She sent pics on my mom's phone and it's all bruised, purple, and swollen. She claims she can walk on it, though, and that she can move it a little.  So it's either a nasty sprain where she pulled something, or it's a fracture.  I would guess it's a fracture, but it would be great if it wasn't.  She's always, ALWAYS the one to break bones in our family.  Not massive breaks, mind you, but just cracks.  Things that still require casts though.  There was the collar bone doing a cartwheel, the wrist slamming into the wall while rollerblading, the toe from losing her footing stepping out the door, and the ankle stepping into a molehill.  My other sister and I haven't broken a bone, not even fractured.  But this one? *shakes head*  What's ironic is that she drinks alot of milk, so she gets alot of calcium. You would think her bones would be able to withstand a little more than they do.  My mom and I planned to head out to get her to bring her home a day early last night, but my sister never got back with us until this morning.  Mom's still going out to get her, but is joined by our friend of the family instead, since she knows the way to the hospital in Iowa where my sister will be.  It's a 5 hour drive for them there and back, so they won't be home till late in the evening.  I would have loved to go too, even for just the trip if we had left last night, but alas...she got back to us too late.  I gotta work tomorrow and still have stuff to do today.  Oh well.  EDIT: Scratch that.  My sister called and told my mom not to bother to get her.  The hospital put her in a walking cast since, yep, she broke her metatarsal.  Tsk tsk.  Sheesh.

**I'm not liking what I'm becoming.  Things aren't going right.  Gots to make some changes and get back on track.

Ta-ta.

Angelina Jolie considering and being considered to play Catwoman in the next Batman? Ugh.  GAG ME.  Like we don't get bombarded enough by her and her "oh my gawd, I'm so hawt and every man wants to nail me" sort of roles?  Do we really need her in yet another movie where she'll play some gorgeously stunning bad-ass?  I mean come on, this is getting old.  Yeah, the woman's beautiful, yeah every girl wants to have lips like her, yeah she's alllllllllways the ultimate choice for a sexy female lead that would surely draw in a heck of a lot of testosterone-drenched men to the cinema, blah blah blah...but geeze.  Are there no other beautiful women out there who can bring sexy to a role anymore?  Does Angelina always get the dibs on that?

And the thing is, I totally don't even have anything against Angelina as an actress.  I mean, I don't much care for her treatment of her flesh and blood father; I think she's letting too much time and opportunity slip away before she can make peace with the man before he dies, but alas...that's her business I suppose.  It just irks me is all.  But she's a GREAT actress.  To this day, I loved her in "The Bone Collector." Yeah, it wasn't the most dramatic movie on the planet, but I just loved what she did with it anyway. It was the first movie I saw her in and I thought she was perfect.  Wasn't overly sexed up.  It wasn't rubbed in my face that she's this sexy vixen out to lure men in.  I'm just sick of not seeing her in more of those great actress roles that aren't so thick with "sexiness" all the time.  Granted, I haven't seen all her movies, but I don't think I need to.  It's like a beacon, what Hollywood wants us to perceive her as.  And it's just oh so played out.  Don't we need something fresh?  We already had Angie in Tomb Raider, Beowulf, Wanted, and the countless others

But on the other hand, it's not like I'm totally into these new Batman movies anyway.  The possible addition of Angelina, though gag-worthy, won't break or make the movie that already isn't the best in my eyes anyway.  Maybe, though, despite my severe aversion to women in sexed up roles, she can still manage to pull it off in some sort of cool way where the movie will be more fun for me.  Ironically, maybe she'll even save it.  She'll never ever surpass Michelle Pfeiffer, but eh...whatever.  Oh now wait a minute though. There's also rumored talk of Johnny Depp being considered for the role as the Riddler.  Nowwww we're talking. I could very well complain about Johnny too being always used for the same type of roles as Angelina, but heh, you see...that doesn't really apply to him.  He's a sexy thing, of course...but he most CERTAINLY isn't always in a sexy role.  In fact, he's so versatile, he can pull off any role.  It'd be great to see him in Batman. I surely would more enjoy it then.

Well anyway...not much of a meaningful blog, I know.  But whatever.  It's what I wanted to spew.  And it's a wonderful distraction from everything else.

Ta-ta.

You see?  This is yet another reason why all these modern Nolan Batmans really leave me seething.

WHAT THE HELL DOES THE WORLD HAVE AGAINST KEATON'S BATMAN?!?  WHY CAN I NOT FIND THE ORIGINAL BATMANS ANYWHERE?

Is it sooooo much to ask to find SOMEONE who's selling the original movies, Batman and Batman Returns?  I swear to friggin' goodness, I can't find them anywhere. It's like suddenly those movies were dropped off the face of the earth like they never existed.  Now any I find are ridiculously high-priced because the damn money hogs who own them know that more and more people want the Keaton Batmans in their collection than these freaking Batman Begins and Dark Knight crap.  I type in "Batman" in search windows for DVD sites and all I get is bombarded by that damn Batman Begins vomit and all the freaking cartoons.  But now the others are no more? I just don't get it. 

*sigh* I'm just mad at myself for not buying them sooner, when they were first released as 2-Disc special editions.  I took it for granted that they'd always be around.  I gave away my original copies knowing that I'd buy them as Special Editions and now I can't find them. Amazon.com has Batman, but it's out of stock. OUT OF STOCK.  As far as Batman Returns, Amazon doesn't even offer it anymore.  They're seemingly only being sold for at least 40 bucks, 50 bucks for a brand new one.  WHAT THE HELL??  Has the world gone mad?  Does everyone on this planet suddenly hate the older Batmans as they embrace these new ones?

*pout*

If anyone, ANYONE out there know of any place where I can purchase either one of these movies for a friggin' decent price brand new, do spill for me.  Because this is ridiculous and upsetting.  All I want is some damn Michael Keaton Batman, and apparently it's too much to ask.  Stupid Chris Nolan Batmans hogging all the spotlight like his Batman is the only one worth having in life.  DAMMIT.

EDIT: Well, Columbia House to the rescue.  I can get the entire Batman Anthology (including the very awful Batman and Robin, but oh well) for 43 bucks, special features and all, an 8 disc pack.  And it's IN STOCK.  Bring it the hell on.  And it's a club price too. I never thought I'd be so happy to be a part of the club.  Normal price for this Anthology is 80 bucks.  Too bad they don't have the individual movies for such cheap prices, but oh well.  Guess I'm gonna have to buy it. I already have Batman Forever and I had no interest in Batman and Robin, but this is hell of a smaller price to pay than for just ONE of the movies I really want, so I might as well get all of them.

Blah. Still mad though.

**CHURCH**

I just love my pastor dearly.  What an annointing and a gift for telling it like it is, but not in a way where you believe there's no hope.  He keeps it real.  As usual, his message related heavily to what weighs in on my heart.  He spoke of not getting so overly wrapped up in ourselves as Christians, on our abilities or lack thereof, anything that will distract us from where our focus should really be lying, and that's Jesus.  Even I have trouble with that.  How often do I sit here complaining about my shortcomings and blunders? Too often.  And all that does is suck my focus away from what's really important.  Not only this, but he also taught us not to get mad at our Christianity. That if we run out of gas, we just gotta get a refill on gas.   He used the perfect example, too, that of a Toyota Prius.  Even something as environmentally friendly as a hybrid car that can run 51 miles per gallon of gas will still need a refill.  It doesn't help to get mad at the car and kick it when it runs out of gas.  Just like Christianity.  Yes, sometimes I get mad at myself, at God, at Christianity...at everything when all I really oughta be doing is getting a refill.  A recharge.  It was a great message.

**CRUSH**

Not much to say on him as my moments with him are sorely depleted, but I will say that I think I realized what it was that sucked me into that crush.  He's a lot like Will Smith.  Personality-wise. Granted, I don't know Will Smith personally, but I know what he's portrayed on TV and film.  I gotta tell ya, a man like Will Smith when it comes to humor is a lindy-magnet.  I love Will Smith's personality. I love his comedic wit.  And yes, my old co-worker has a humor much like Will.  He called me 3 times today from Georgia, the first two calls I missed since I was at church.  After I texted him to apologize, he called again.  We didn't talk long, just over 10 minutes, but it was a rather cute conversation.  He tells me, "Well, the girls in the Pet Care department aren't as cute as you, so you're safe."  I was like haha right.  I tell him that even if there were cute girls, I still couldn't do anything about it since I'm way up here in Indy.  Then he's like, "So maybe you should move to Georgia."  I try not to take him too seriously, but he's brought that up alot and I don't think he's doing it to be funny.  He honestly sounds like he wants me around over there.  Of course I'm not considering it, but it's rather flattering anyway.  I try to make jokes of it, suggesting it'd be freaky stalker behavior to follow him around, but he usually never laughs.  Oyy. Whatever.  He's still someone to wallow in, that's for sure.  Even on the phone I have a smile on my face.  I found out he still misses me very much, but we're even with that.   Before hanging up, I said he can give me a call tomorrow or vice versa, and he was like, "Well actually I'm busy. I'm going to a strip club that night."  I just laugh and shake my head suggesting that hey, he's gotta do what he's gotta do.  But he laughed just the same saying he's kidding. If that's his thing, then that's his thing.  It's cute how he does that to get a rise outta me, though, like I'm really gonna be devastated that he goes there.  Not that I condone strip clubs, but I'm not about to guilt someone out of going or force them not to.  It was a funny goodbye moment. 

**EPIPHANY**

I had a strange thought today.  It's weird to think it, but it got thought of.  I was thinking, "If I'm the last one to find a man, that'll be alright."  Why?  Well honestly?  My old friend DJ kinda triggered it in me about being happy for others, namely my sister, who's seemingly on the verge of getting involved with someone.  She's been hangin out heavily with a certain male, and they seem to be hitting it off rather well so far.  The thought must be crossing her mind because she asked my folks the other day what they would think if it were to happen.  It would be yet again a situation where my sisters have someone while I don't.  Anyway, the thought that crossed my own mind a couple of days after he said that was:  "Well, I'm glad she won't have to experience what I've felt for so long."  When the both of them are taken, that just leaves me.  Granted, it'll hurt like it always does to feel left out, but at least it gives me some bit of comfort knowing that it's not something my sister's have to feel.  It's not a pleasant feeling, being a girl who doesn't have anyone, so I honestly don't really wish that on anyone, especially my sisters.  If my one single sister finds a husband before I do, then so be it.  I'll know that certain pain will be over for both of them, and it will just be me.  Am I embracing pain?  Not at all. I'm just embracing being the only one with that pain.  It's not like this is a competition, after all.  Besides, people will hopefully be all the more happy for me once I find that certain someone (or that certain someone finds me) since I'll probably be the last one to do.  Best for last perhaps? Nah, that's too stuck up a thing to say. Still! I liked knowing that I can think beyond myself in this matter. What an epiphany to have for a person like me in a situation such as this.

**RED & BLACK**

I still intend to make some sort of album of the duo.  From my camera, to shirts, to a Bratz doll, to my very car...there's a heck of a lot of red and black in my life and I just wanna make a collection of their pictures.  I'm curious myself just how many things in my collection are my two favorite colors.  The latest addition to the red and black in my life will eventually be a Nintento DS, which apparently they've made a red and black one of.  Thankfully, the system will be able to play my GB Advanced games so it won't be a waste. Plus, I can get my grubby hands on those Brain Age games.  Gawd those look like massive fun.  Of course, I don't have a spare $150 bucks to spare for this newest red and black device, but I will eventually.  Maybe I'll even ask for it for my Birthday, but of course, I have to make sure they get me the right one.  It's gotta be the Crimson/Black Nintendo DS Lite, the more modern version.  Gah, then there's a red and black MP3 player I'd like to add to my collection as well.  There's just a whole bunch of stuff that I wanna share with anyone who cares or is curious.  If there's no one out there who fits the bill, then no matter! It's still mostly for my own personal satisfaction anyway.

**BED**

I have a date with it tonight.

Ta-ta.