Yeah, that was me... check it out...
Excuse the bluriness.
*Sigh* I miss acting/directing/improv... maybe someday I can do community theatre with my kids!
And be more involved with that in our church! I still am to an
extent, but these days I mainly serve as a wifey and mommy!
Josh and I are going out tonight for the first time in over two months,
(yay)! We're going to go see SAW II. I hope it's as good as
the first one was!
I'm only going to weigh myself weekly now. This is in hopes that
a little bit of my sanity will be preserved. I go through such
weird phases. Sometimes I'm really fired up and excited about
losing weight, but right now I'm just like... eh. But I know I
HAVE to do something before I end up weighing 500 pounds.
Blah. I WANT to lose weight, but I am just so mentally drained at
the moment that it's like I have to build back up to it, or
something. I don't really know how to explain it. I'm not
depressed right now, but I have been really moody lately...
Josh got a flat tire earlier, so he went ahead and bought
four
new ones for his truck. And my Blazer has needed new tires for...
a year? But it also needs a new alternator and other
whatnots.
*sigh* He wants me to wait until we move and then get a different car
(oh yeah, I haven't talked about having to move, but it's coming...)
but I'm sooooo sick of being stuck here all day long and not being able
to get errands run in the daytime. Thank God for online bill pay,
at least.
At Bible study the other night, we had an interesting discussion about
where the soul goes once the body dies. I don't think it's
anywhere here on earth, but beyond the physical. Ashes to ashes,
dust to dust. The breath of God... God's creation. He knew
us before he ever formed us. He had already created us in his
heart, and in his mind. From where our soul came, it will go back
to. Like an artist who paints a beautiful painting, like a writer
who composes an amazing song, before it's ever put on canvas or paper,
it's in their heads, and they feel passionate about it in their
hearts. So is it possible that once we die, our souls go back to
where they came -- back to the mind of God, and later he recreates us
with a better body
(as talked about in Revelations)?
If an artist loses his physical display of what was first formed in his
mind, it's still not destroyed. At the same time it left his mind
to become something tangible, it always stayed there, too, and later on
he can recreate his masterpiece in a more magnificent way. I
wonder if it's the same way with... us? It seems that in the Old
Teastament, and references to it, that souls remained upon the earth,
but remember when Jesus' physical body died upon the cross...
“And behold, the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to
bottom; and the earth shook and the rocks were split. The tombs were opened, and many
bodies of the saints who had fallen asleep were raised; and coming out of the tombs after
His resurrection they entered the holy city and appeared to many”
(Matthew 27:51-53)
"A sleep" - interesting. Anyway, for awhile I kind of
wondered what exactly our souls were and where they came from, but it
makes more sense to me now -- from the breath of God, because we were
first formed in the mind of God, who gave us a physical form, yet still
retains us in his heart and mind at all times. And once our
physical bodies pass away, we remain there with him, peacefully
"sleeping", until judgement, and a new heaven and earth come to be...
along with glorified bodies.
Anyway, it was a really interesting discussion because people have very
different opinons on this issue. Though I don't suppose it's all
that important to know WHERE our soul is at after physical death as
long as we know where WE'RE at with God while we're here...
In mommy news: Jonathan dumped the entire shaker of salt onto his peanut butter and jelly sandwhich this morning.
*sigh* Kids...
