| how come i feel more loved by
a boy im not even going out with than
my actaul boyfriend? i guess you
really dont care any more </3 So many of my friends are guys. They're great in times of emergencies like when you need a date to the prom or a stand-in boyfriend when some guy you don't like is hitting on you. No matter how much you fight, they always keep coming back so sick & tired of acting like i'm fine, beacuse truthfully, i'm not. I can't even talk to you without being so incredibly sad. You were the one person who was always supposed to be there for me, one of my best friends, my everything..& you ruined it all in that moment. & i acted like it didn't hurt, & for a while, i didn't think it did, but the tears are here & i now realize that it hurt more than anything in the world.. On the outside, you know you're not that same,
naive kid anymore. You've been through too much
lately. But deep down, at your core, there will
always be a part of you, that rejects reality.
That is eternally hopeful. it`s sad. because every day we spent together is slowly being replaced by everyday spending apart. I miss youu There's always gonna be that guy,
that no matter what happens between you two,
no matter how long you go without talking,
you just never stop loving him. we're not "sarcastic"; we're hilarious.
we're not annoying; we're just cooler than you.
we're not bitches; we just don't like you.
we're not obsessed. we're just best friends she didn't feel her heart speed up everytime
the boy walked by anymore. she didn't want
to run and hide so she wouldn't fall over and
over again. she was okay looking for a new
boyfriend and suddenly, the thought of him
being with somebody new didn't hurt her
anymore. she wanted him to be happy, and
she wanted the same for herself. she let go
of the last year of her life, and she let go of
her total and complete passion</ and if sometime in our new lives i
see you, i will smile and remember
how we spent months with eachother
learning from eachother and
growing in love <3 Even though i've ' stopped liking you '
every time someone mentions your name..
my head turns right towards them.
It's like every time I hear it..
I think of all that we could have had
and all that could have happened
that didn't & all she wants is a boy who will
call her at 4 am because he couldn’t sleep
hold her hand for no reason at all
wrap his arms around her and hold her tight
treat her like shes the most important thing in the world
but mostly she just wants to know someone cares Trying to be someone you aren't
is a waste of the person you are..baby I don't care what life we lead..
if we're from different famlies or different households
as long as we both long for the same kind of love
& the same kind of dream..
i promise..
we can do absolotley anything <3 don't know what it is about you
but you got it
& i want it <3 you can't lie to your heart
no matter [ how hard ] you try . I remember all the nights i used to stay at home
on the phone all night long, used to talk about the things
we'd really wanna do. I believed in you. I remember how
you used to say, "have no fear, it'll be ok." When you
told me anything you want is possible; we could have
it all. I believed in you. I must have been a fool. | 
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