mood:>>> mind wandering,cold,hugging a suffed animal for confort.(i dont know why i'm so insecure at this time lol) ._.''

hellos everyone! Just so you all know i actualy got my lazy self to get a yahoo SN so here it is you all : thisburningsoul90 . It's cloudy outside which makes it pretty cold. i actualy had issues with geting warm today and i still am. But thats not really what bothered me. i sat and thought about how lonely and big the city is. curently i'm reading a book about this guy in rehab for my english home work and in this book he describes this great void and lonelyness which lead me to think about all the lonely people that live in this big city and durring the holidays how hard it must be on them. Also i felt the lonelyness take me by suprise so to numb it i listened to some depeche mode and fell asleep listening to david gahan's voice. It put me right of to bed after i had put the book down. it's a really good book it really was hard to let go of it but i felt lonely and a bit sleepy so i  had to. So out of insparation and today's feelings i guess i'll chock up a poem. so here it goes...

*black*

it grows closer to night and i wait for it to come

this blackness,this darkness,this pain

I look away and hold on to you.

we cover our ears and we wait for it to hit

this blackness,this darkness, this thing

the coldness takes hold and we shiver

under it's power. this is a silent killer and murder it wants

this blackness,this darkness, this void

it comes in waves and causes lovers to wither

this deadly state of mind that drives us all mad

this blackness, this darkness, this emotion

it leaves as soon as it came but leaves this stinging pain.

the best way to handle this disease it to let it come then go.

chase it away with a prayer or a spell or even a distant thought.

just make it stop...

(note* i'm not mad or anything i just felt ike that abit)

thats my spot of poetry for now. so i shall talk and see you all laters.

lovash you all!

~the moni-chan