this is for me, because when I write, it's not for your sake, but for my sanity. oh, the rapturous joy of finishing a paper.

but only after three packs of gushers, and so many pieces of gum that my jaw started clenching, and my teeth threatened to chip away.

and all the while, someone in the back of my head is pounding insistently: COLLEGE ESSAYS COLLEGE ESSAYS; the words bring a surge of goosebumps across my pale, dilapidated flesh.

& I only rebooted xanga to say something witty that I've lost in the midst of hex codes and aestetics. I feel like a hiccup, a blip in the radar. AN ELOQUENT ONE THOUGH.  

I've discovered the intricacies of a webcam, and am madly infatuated with watching myself glimmer across the screen. can we say NARCISSIST? Cause I can.

jeebus, I need to start working. There's nothing like being a procrastinating egoist [who has to pee].

oh and I got a new sn. add me.