No one even reads this crap anymore.....but maybe thats good.

Stuck back in my rut, life won't let me move forward or fall back....it is to much

Here it all goes again....

One more decision, one more life change.....maybe this is the right one.

I am going to the army, I am headed for the reserves.......I plan on doing that, possibly going infantry.....or leaving and going to school....

I am super excited.  This is going to be a good thing for me.  And a big life change.

So if anyone wants to hang before I leave, get a hold of me

on my knees again
hoping, pleading, begging, seeking

I've been here before
waiting patiently upon the Lord

So I swallow my pride,
cause it's in you is where I rest and hide

Take these scars on my knees as proof that I have given up....

I have to much hurt to hide, but if you want to see inside, you have to break through the walls, that I have built for years with a few pitiful tears

So listen when I say, this can't be the end, we all get time to mend.....but is that enough if you won't get up?

Here it goes, as the blood and water flows....you can't change my mind, and neither can time.  So here I am, I am at your mercy....so if you want to give up the past and look to the future, hand me that needle and I will close the last soucher

Cause you are mine and I am yours, if dreams are all I have, then I will dream forever, and bask in the innocence of a love that never was, never will be, and was not meant to be

oh no, here we go again......

I have been here before and so have all of you, and I am sure you have heard all this before, but before you give up, listen up, but not to much

things are not under your control, this is about more than just your soul, there are lives and hearts at stake.....so don't make the same mistake

cause i am not about to leave, so please just believe the things that i say