Well things are going alot better in my life now. Ross and I are still friends...and we're still talking so that's always good. He has another girlfriend but she's pretty nice so it doesn't bother me. And...I have another boyfriend. But he's not just any other guy. He's amazing. He makes me so happy it's ridiculous. And his family seems to be okay with me too so I guess that's a good thing.
Been working with the band/freshmen thing alot this summer already. And I'm still working at the Golden Arches. Ha. Band seems to already be consuming my life. And I mean...I'm drum major and so it's obviously my responsibility but my summer has seriously consisted of band, work, and more band. But oh well. What can you say? I'm majoring in music...so it can't be too bad I guess. I love it.
My mom is sick again...her back this time. I've been really really worried about her and it's had me pretty stressed out the past couple weeks.
And it seems that most of my friends hate me right now. Especially my best friend. All because of a big misunderstanding I think. I hope. Because I love her so much and couldn't NOT have her in my life. She's my other me. And she knows who she is...and if you by chance read this girl....give me a call. Because I would really like to make things right. We need to go do something before we start our SENIOR year of high school!
I've had alot more freedom in my life the past couple of weeks too. I don't know how long that's going to last though.
I'm really worried about all these college classes next year. I haven't gone up to the college yet to get my stuff approved by the dean...but I probably need to do that soon. Speaking of which....Meagan call me. I have some questions about that. I think I'm misssing some paper work I need to register in August.
So apparently all of the band couples have split now. Funny how a summer can be full of so much fun and so much hurt. But I'm very happy right now. And Ross and I just really weren't meant to be together I guess. We're going different paths and he's very much in love with another girl..and I'm very much in love with another guy. So everyone who's said something to me about it...I'm okay guys. I promise. Things are different now. But who says change is a bad thing? Because so far....change has been a really really good thing in my life.
And wow I think that this is probably been the longest xanga entry I've had in a really long time. And really...who reads xanga entrys these days? Ha. Take it easy guys and give me a call soon. I miss you all. Every freakin one of ya.
With love,
Samantha | 
