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  • okay so. those are shitty resolutions me and my sister just had a long talk. and you know what i want for 2006? i want to live freely. i want to stop taking things for granted. i want to finally follow my heart instead …

  • 2005 was absolutely amazing. i hope 2006 is even better. intake- b-blackcoffee. s-nothing. l-nothing. s- d- total = tba. resolutions- weight related: -90 pounds. -protruding hipbones -no binging -no snacking -under 20…

  • OH MY GOD I AM SO SO SO SO SORRY IF I GAVE YOU THE VIRUS. IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET RID OF IT... HERE'S HOW: 1.) click "sign into safemode" 2.) log into your account 3.) click on weblog entries 4.) delete the first f…

  • i told jolee everything and we've just been going back and forth spilling secrets to eachother one after another. at least i won't have to eat in front of her at the mall later today. (it's already friday here) thursda…

  • i know it's midnight now. but this entry really is intended for when i wake up later. today i am going to the movies with dylan to see king kong bad choice of movie but he said it was the longest one which means he gets…

  • 4:37AM. talking to dylan again. =] what is it about this boy that makes me want to just give all of this up and spend forever in his arms? so cliche. so dramatic. so ironic. i had my chance and i would do anything to ha…

  • it's 4:00AM. i'm going to bed soon. but yesterday was absolutely lovely i went to the movies with 13 people and i sat with dylan. i really love him. i swear that he completes me. he's who i've been up talking to since a…

  • so i made a blogring just now and it's called "it's not just some stage that we're going through." click?! <-- i'd love if i could get some people to join. it would be nice. and by the way if anyone has a myspace an…

  • things were getting messy. i need an organized entry. i like lists. they're neat. sorry. this is like. the 8th update for today. presents i received: 1.) dooney and bourke "it" tapestry bucket bag 2.) grey hardtail roll…

  • tell me that you're alright. yeah, everything is alright. ----------* sorry the pictures are so blurry but i was shivering to death walking around in 15 degree weather with nothing but a sweatshirt sipping g…

  • all is right in the world again. merry christmas to you all and happy hanukkah too. ...edit... i got a lot of presents that i really really loved a tiffany necklace and a dooney and bourke purse. hard tail pants and vi…

  • ahh. so today went very well. i had some sugar cookies. just a few really tiny ones. but i didn't have to eat dinner and me and jolee took a 2 hour walk in like. 15 degrees with just sweatshirts on and it was so lovely d…

  • you girls never cease to amaze me. so much support and so many comments. i really have never taken the time to properly thank all of you but i want all of you to know how much i love and support you. what would i ever do…

  • loooooong post ahead. but i love you all so much and i hope you'll read about my awesome day because it's really a drastic change from what i've had lately i don't know why i'm posting this so today was basically the be…

  • sorry for being stupid lately i know i'm always so upset but i need somewhere to take all my sadness and anger out because i have to fake happiness all day at school. in english class we have been reading this amazing b…

  • lately, i have felt lower than i have ever felt in my entire life why does everyone seem so absolutely satisfied with their lives? why am i always so upset? what's wrong with me? why am i suffering? why am i here? i nee…

  • okay. screw homework. because i don't have any =] except for the 3 tests tomorrow ah. anyone know anything about the american revolution? i can't stand history class. and math. ugh algebra. ugh factoring. and health clas…

  • last night i had a breakdown like no other couldn't write. couldn't sleep. couldn't think. i just lied awake crying hours and hours so what i do i do? i flip out at dylan because he was supposed to help me with my home…

  • today went by so quickly. i hope this week goes by as fast. today was good. i feel better. someone please tell me why my emotions change every 2 seconds? friday will be good. real good. except for avoiding cookies in ge…

  • i'm bored. way too bored. being alone is a scary thing. it is now, when i spend too much time by myself that i begin to spiral more. all my thoughts consume me this is a dangerous place to be. reality will hit me soon. i…

  • today i woke up and made my mom pancakes she insisted that i have some but i didn't eat any thankfully that's another thing about me i like to cook and bake a lot usually when i'm stressed out a week exactly until chri…

  • it's the most wonderful time of the year.

  • today was refreshing to put it quite simply. i'm not posting my intake because just like before i felt like people don't actually appreciate what i take the time to write and only pay attention to what i eat or don't eat…

  • i'm alright now. i might not be here if it weren't for dylan he sent me this relaxing meditation shit that i actually listened to and it really did work. and i feel asleep for 4 hours woke up. came here. went to bed fo…

  • you know what i do when i have a bad day? i wrap myself in plastic wrap. like i'm about-to-go-bad leftover food. and then layer on clothing lots and lots and lots of sweats and hope that i sweat off a few pounds and slee…

  • i failed. oh god. i let you girls down oh i ate so much. way too much. i hadn't had anything all day to eat and i didn't eat with everyone else and i thought "wow okay. first day of fasting that i've had in such a long …

  • surprise. =) i think my periods over i know. two days. i'm a lucky bitch but even when i was "healthy" it only lasted that long too. today was better than i expected i was so upset this morning when we didn't get off f…

  • i should be happy right? that my period is back? no. i hate this. hatehatehate i must have gained like about 5 pounds for it to start back up again. i'm bloated as fuck and i have cramps the size of africa or asia or wha…

  • HOLY SHIT I THINK MY PERIOD IS BACK AFTER LIKE... 3094580943853 MONTHS FUCK FUCK FUCK SOMEONE MAKE IT STOP sorry. i had a mini freak out. comment below.

  • today was alright i guess. started off the day bad so that through me off. in german class we were learning the names of furniture and we're making "dream houses" i completely for got a kitchen and a dining room an…

  • i have to lose weight by friday. lee's party. which means hot tub. even in december. bathing suits. ugh. my sister got angry because i said she couldn't wear my hollister bikini. not even that she couldn't. that i would…

  • another monday is over. thankgod i made it through. today was just a total blur and all my teaches are on homework overload probably trying to make up for friday's snow day. i almost got attacked by snickerdoodles at lu…

  • day 1 i feel better now. and i'm up early. 2 weeks till holidays. and i think i've gained. so it's time to establish some new rules for now. intake- b- 8:45AM - blackcoffee. s- 10:02AM - blackcoffee. l- 1:13PM - diet p…

  • alright. last time i'm changing my entry. i promise. really. haha today jolee and emily made peanutbutter cookies and i tasted just one. so now i feel fat and gross we also did workout tapes and listened to christmas mu…

  • ahh. a snow day. thank god. i adore days like this. where i have the perfect excuse to spend the whole day indoors and i'll relax and take my time doing all my homework and getting things done. so maybe that's a complet…

  • okay. so i really like leading guys on and flirting like crazy. even though that's mean but i can't help it didn't see christine. =[ did see geoff who i love and he made me real happy. even though he was a bit ttttttttii…

  • today was an easy day. tomorrow i have a field trip and i'll see christine there. =] along with some old friends so that should be lots of fun. i'm really really praying that friday will be a snow day. that will definit…

  • so me and a few friends thought it would be funny to start a myspace bulletin with just a list of stuff titled "you know you go to RMS when..." (RMS is my middle school) i have to admit, some of the stuff was extremely…

  • today was lovely. not much to say. i hope your days went just as well. <3 ...edit... i was just thinking about it and i don't know why i always give people what they want i have this stupid little habit of doing wh…

  • it's the first snow of the year which really makes me happy i don't actually like going in it but it makes me feel all warm and christmas-y inside i guess. post-secret update today for those of you who adore that site. …

  • sorry i didn't update. jolee and julie came home on the bus with me today and we saw rent again. hah i've gotten used to my bangs and i like them a lot now. i don't know why i do it but it's like i feel attracted to ev…

  • today was actually a better day and we listened to christmas music in my art class which made me happy. i know i probably shouldn't do this but sometimes when i'm sitting on the bus and all of my friends have already le…

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