i think that i am going to stop xanga. just like jason said on his site, all it is doing is making things depressing, and i agree. things get started when they should not. especially when people do not know the facts. i dunno its like i try to makes new friends, like bonnie, i really thought that we were going to become real freinds, but i guess not. she has not called me at all. it feels bad. and then britney without even knowing anything fuses my ass out, and it hurts. i dont want sympathy, i dont want anything but for people to start telling the fucking truth. and i dont understand it. people talk about those that are there BEST FRIEND behind there back, and act like nothing ever happens. im tired of bullshit, and i am tired of drama. thats why i am trying to stop hanging out with certain people. you should know who you are by now. and the people that are my 'best friends' then start acting like it. because right now your not, no matter how much you think you are. its like jason is the only person that is there for me, and i only talk to him online lately, thats really sad. i dunno. everything is screwed up.

--Raquel