Currently Playing Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness By The Smashing Pumpkins Tonight, Tonight see related

Once again, I am back in the school library.  I have left my Latin class, because since everyone is lazy (and I already did my work) I have nothing to do.  So, here I am, writing in my journal.  I have a question to pose to everyone: Does it make you any less of a "man" if you are very open with your emotions?  I had this discussion with some people while in DC.  I just always feel like my emotions are constantly either getting the best of me or making me confused; I just wish that for once my emotions were just normal and in check.  But, haha, it's kind of impossible to have normal emotions and be a teenager at the same time.  I figure that once I get things straight with this whole "Maeve Episode", as Isaac calls it, I'll go back to being ok.  She and I talked for a little while last night, but nothing really got resolved.  I told her all my feelings and probably, when I get home today, I'll call her to make an attempt at fixing things.  I think she was very shocked to hear all of my feelings; but I think some of them came out while we were in DC.  She had to have known something was up.  When things get figured out, I'll let you know what happens.

And now I have, ummmm, ten days until my Latin AP and only eight until my Government AP.  And now I am kind of freaking out; I'm not sure if I'll be ready in time for the Govt. one.  But I think I'll be able to pull a good score off (I hope). 

I need to go on Wednesday for an interview with Starbucks.  I'm working right now at Dominion Skateboards in Carytown, but the gas is milking me for all my money and then I don't have shit left on my paycheck.  So, I'm trying to get a closer job, with the same level of coolness/slackness.  Hopefully they'll like me; plus, I get an assload of free and discounted coffee, so I'm happy about that too.

I feel like laying down and just going to sleep right here in the library.  I still haven't recovered from not getting any sleep in DC at all.  I would go sleep on the couch, which is a few feet away, but the librarians would go crazy on me; probably send me back to class or something.  So, here I am complaining about stuff and falling asleep; I hope this entry makes some sort of sence.

Is anyone planning on going to the Dashboard Confessional/Bright Eyes concert that's coming up in early June?  If you aren't, well, you should, because it's going to be mad sweet.  I'm planning on taking a few people with me to see it.  And, if anyone didn't go to the Thursday/Engine Down show this past month, you should have.  I couldn't believe how great the show was.  Plus, Engine Down was sweet, so I bought their LP at the show.  They sound like a cross between Poison the Well, Thursday, and Alkaline Trio; it's definately an interesting mix.  Both sets were incredible and the crowd was so into it.  For a while, the we (the audience) shouted the lyrics along with the singers so loud that we overpowered the mic's and amp's.  Craziness...pure craziness.

Well, I'm going to jet.  I think I need to go back to class or go to sleep or go do something.

More Later, Much Love...