Word of the Life: Retire. Define as you see fit. I'm out.

Just a small update for all of those still reading.  These are just a few pics of me and my beloved corps. Hope all is well for everyone. Hopefully I'll have more of a post for everyone later.

I'm sitting down writing this as what most would refer to as a brainwashed altered personality. As you will be able to tell I am changed in one way compared to what I was... I'm inspired by something other than youthful angst. I'm inspired by the slightest taste of life that I have experienced.  I have had my eyes slightly opened to what it is to truly miss the feeling of comfort and nearby love and security. I joined the corps to help my country and to avoid the almost certain destruction of my moral character, as corrupt as it already may be.  I don't have the time nor resources to thoroughly embelish your eyes with my words but just know that even the military has certain beauty that one may only taste with the experience.  I would have regretted a different decision because my mind constantly has driven me to stand at different angles, look up, and explore the very essence of human emotion.  There is a deep connection with ones self that can only be experienced through true suffering.  Although the time spent in pain may be hazardous to ones mental state at the time, all in all after you are pulled through buy a force greater than your own mind, in my case loved ones, you realize that the pain was necessary. I have been granted with a gift by God and even though I may be stuck in limbo physically, mentally I will continue to show the world and this society that we are not all individuals and we are never alone.  We all run together in a single motion, in the rythm of life, as off beat as it may be at times.  Like I've always said and expressed to those closest to me, the biggest experiences are all comprised and frankly composed of the smallest instances of affection, hate, love, and mental activity.   Everything translates into one thing that is inevitable for all living beings.  Life.

 I will continue to write as frequently as possible and keep everyone updated on things but as of right now I am working with a few others in an attempt to publish the letters that were written in bootcamp.  It will be a long process but there is no doubt that one day my dream will become a reality. I miss you all.

If I speak the languages of men
  and of angels,
  but do not have love,
I am a sounding gong
  or a clanging cymbal.
If I have [the gift of] prophecy,
and understand all mysteries
  and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith,
  so that I can move mountains,
but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient; love is kind.
  Love does not envy;
is not boastful; is not conceited;
does not act improperly; is not selfish;
is not provoked; does not keep
  a record of wrongs;
finds no joy in unrighteousness,
  but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.
But as for prophecies, they will come
  to an end;
as for languages, they will cease;
as for knowledge, it will come
  to an end.
For we know in part,
  and we prophesy in part.
But when the perfect comes,
  the partial will come to an end.
When I was a child, I spoke like a child,
I thought like a child,
  I reasoned like a child.
When I became a man, I put aside
  childish things.
For now we see indistinctly,
  as in a mirror, but then face to face,
Now I know in part, but then
  I will know fully,
  as I am fully known.
Now these three remain:
  faith, hope, and love.
But the greatest of these is love.

So now I leave and the dance ends just as it began, with a spoken word.  I'll miss all of you and will never regret decisions made and roads traveled, but will merely look upon them as a lesson in life.  I will cherish the memories as if they were mine and mine alone.  I give credit to everyone that has touched my life and ask them to never cease offering open arms and open minds for those ahead.  I love you guys.  I can't wait to see everyone again. Whether we are believers or not, we have all had the dream that consists of everyone that we love and cherish in our pressence.  For those of you who knew me the best and loved me for who I am, don't ever forget who I was, for I am sure to never forget you. I'll see all of you soon.

Hey do you remember that time....