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| | I actually wrote the bulk of this yesterday...I was just too damn tired to finish it. I had to retire to bed rather early.
It seems like that every time I write here, I'm always apologising for how slack I am for not posting regularly. And I don't consider once a week "regular".
Okay, I'm going to try an experiment. I'm going to write using proper capitalisation. For once. Now, I don't know whether it really does affect one's ability to absorb information, but I find that I read things better when done with proper capitalisation and punctuation.
So maybe you, the curious reader, may be able to get more out of this now that I'm writing properly.
Well, here I am. Uni classes have now finished, so I have a LOT more spare time now. Although exams ARE coming up soon. Anyway, this period is known as swot vac...short for "swotting vacation"...which is basically study study study. Which I haven't done since first year.
I'm one step closer to achieving my dream. I've been emailing L.A. Music Academy for the past week or so...I've been dealing with a woman named Iris...she has been so courteous and friendly and helpful, because I had been annoying her with countless emails asking her stupid questions. She has been so patient and courteous towards me in her replies and I have been really impressed by the level of service that I have been given.
Anyway, here's the rubdown:
I was intending on sending an audition CD to my preferred music schools (L.A.M.A., M.I., Berklee and Vancouver) in June next year for a March 2005 entry. Well, Iris told me to send an audition tape ASAP...preferably this month. Well, I told her that I had finals in November and asked if it could wait until January. She said it was fine.
But I was rather worried about sending in my application early...after all, I'm sending the application (which consists of an audition CD and an evaluation), 15 months before I start! Where I am right now is not representative of where I will be in 2005. Don't you think that there would be a whole lot more improvement in the year leading up to the start of classes? However, I have a bit more faith in them than that. I'm pretty sure that they will take into account the fact that I'm sending them a CD 15 months early.
Anyway, get this...Iris said, that if I'm not ready by March 2005, they can delay my application until a later date. That basically means that they'll wait until I'm good enough. How cool is that?!?
So great...I basically have two months to get my act together...I'm going to have to be practicing hardcore if I'm to put my best playing on tape. At the moment, I try to practice 2-3 hours whenever I can. I know it needs to be a LOT more than that over the next few weeks...
I know that I would be good enough if I worked hard enough for it. And that help and guidance that I receive from Him is definitely something that I keep failing to recognise and acknowledge. I've got to learn to be more humble.
Anyway, if I don't get a spot, I'll end up having to send the audition tapes to the other schools in June anyway.
About the whole Cathy thing...you know what I keep forgetting and my friends keep reminding me? That really, in the end, there is only ONE relationship that matters. Sometimes, yes, it does hurt and I do feel lonely, but in the end, I really shouldn't feel like that. I have comfort, I have love. I'm just too proud and too bound to worldly values to see it.
Oh, and in case you haven't intuitively guessed yet, Cathy is the girl from Geelong.
Anyway, I haven't been sleeping lately. I've been getting an average 4-5 hours of sleep a night. Ever since daylight savings has come back (and also the gradual increasing of the amount of hours of daylight), it seems to have thrown my whole sleeping pattern out of whack. As soon as I fall asleep, it seems like I have to wake up to go somewhere or do something.
Why can't I fall asleep? I don't know to be honest. I just lie there in bed, tossing and turning...I'm probably the most restless sleeper you would know. When I was young, and was scared for some reason and I wanted to sleep in my parents' bed, they wouldn't let me because of my restlessness...they wouldn't end up getting ANY sleep whatsoever. Up till now, whenever I wake up, I find that my sheets have been all mangled and that I have to untangle them all...
Not just that, I've been spending the past few days feeling sick for no apparent reason...not disease-sick, but more a gut feeling that something wrong is going to happen. I just feel really odd, like more disoriented and I feel like I'm about to throw up, although that never happens. I don't know...either it will pass, or something BIG will happen...I just don't feel right. And I wish I knew why.
Anyway, I am still tired today. I joined a gym (or as they like to call it, Health and Fitness Centre) last week. It's really expensive, but WOW...even though it's only been a week, I can already feel some improvements. My pot is getting smaller! LOL.
Anyway, why did I join a gym? Well, I hate feeling like this...unfit and fat.
I used to be able to run around all day every day without breaking too much of a sweat. I WAS pretty athletic. I used to play competitive sports all year round. Hockey in the winter and cricket in the summer, so I was pretty fit at the time. Heck, I used to play Left Inner, which is predominantly a forward position, BUT it basically involves running up and down the length of the field ad nauseum...and I NEVER was interchanged due to fatigue in the 70 minutes we used to play. But that was in the past. Well, since I joined a football club earlier this year, I realised how unfit I really have become. They used me in short bursts off the interchange bench, usually in a forward pocket, which really doesn't involve too much long distance running. It involves quite a bit of burst speed though. I'm hoping to play midfield next year and that means I have to get my endurance up. I'm expected to run around 7-10km a match if I played midfield...so my goal is to be able to run that far in a reasonable time. However, that's long-term. My short-term goal is to be able to do 1500m in 5-6 minutes. I'm nowhere near that yet. BUUUUT it's been a week, so give me a break.
Also, a gym will definitely help in agility and upper-body strength which is CRUCIAL in football, especially when going for tackles or breaking out of them. But I don't want to bulk up too much because I'll be losing my best assets - sprint speed and agility. It'll weigh me down too much if I'm too big.
It's also all related to drums. Playing drums, as you probably know, is a fairly physical activity. Having a high endurance means that you can play faster for longer. Currently I don't have the endurance to make a 2 or 3 hour set...I'm hoping that soon I'll have the stamina to do 2 x 3-hour sets. After going to the gym a few times, I'm already noticing that I can play slightly faster rolls than what I did before. Having stronger forearms definitely helps in that regard.
So what do I do currently? I do 2 x 15 seated rows, 2 x 15 leg presses, 2 x 15 lat pulldowns, 3 x 10 crunches and 30 minutes of cardio work, which involves a treadmill and a step-like machine. Veeeeery light stuff for the moment, because I'm just starting out after a long layoff. However, I'm hoping soon I'll be doing a more intensive program once I get used to it. I felt really really sore around the shoulder area after the first couple of days...I took a couple of days break and now I'm back into it. Also, I prefer treadmills to running out in the open. As I've posted before, I have patella tendonitis (i.e. really bad knees) and it flares up whenever I run around my area. So far, all this running that I've been doing on the treadmill hasn't inflamed the joints. Which is a VERY.GOOD.THING.
Oh yeah, last Saturday, my sister and her best friend, Liza saw Craig David at Rod Laver Arena. Okay, that was no big deal, BUT Liza left her car parked outside our house. My uncle's car was parked outside of the house as well. Well, what happened is that around 8pm, this crazy BMW driver came tearing down the street (AND IT WAS RAINING AT THE TIME), somehow lost control and hit Liza's car which then catapulted into my tito's car. Result? Minor damage to the BMW...my tito's car is 50/50 write-off and Liza's car is a COMPLETE write-off. Must've been driving very very fast. Apparently a girl was driving, but the guy (who probably owned the car) took the blame, i.e. insurance and licence demerit points. Boy, it makes me mad that people are so stupid when driving. Our street is very hilly and we live at the bottom of a hill. A lot of cars speed around there...I almost got rear-ended a couple of times turning into the driveway...we're going to petition the council to install speed-humps. It's just getting too dangerous, especially when my next-door neighbour's kid ALWAYS plays on that nature strip...I feel especially sorry for Liza, though. She doesn't deserve this.
Damn. This whole diary entry is long.
Random thoughts:
I live in one of the most picturesque parts of Melbourne. It is so magnificently beautiful out where I am. I ride my bike in the park behind my house...God's creation is just amazing! I look at the trees, I look closely at the bark...you just see the craftsmanship, the beauty, the history. Because that tree may have been longer on this earth than I have been here. And it may even outlive me. And as I'm looking at this tree, I begin to wonder...what it must've gone through in order to survive until today...the wind, the hail, the rain, the kids trying to break branches off...I think of the history of the tree...it's just amazing that how, despite all that has happened, it still stands today.
The wonders of God's creation. Wonderful.
More random thoughts:
- I really have to finish Final Fantasy VII AND VIII AND X soon...
- You know the phrase: "An infinite number of monkeys chained to an infinite number of typewriters given an infinite amount of time will eventually produce the complete works of Shakespeare". I can actually imagine it right now, given my semi-detached exhaustion. But then again, if you REALLY think about it, they won't be just typing up Shakespeare...they'll be writing every single piece of writing in existence (or have existed)...and also writings yet to be.
Music lyrics:
I have fallen in love with this song by the Gin Blossoms. This song basically sums up how I feel.
All last summer in case you don’t recall
I was yours and you were mine forget it all
Is there a line that I could write
Sad enough to make you cry
All the lines you wrote to me were lies
The months roll past the love that you struck dead
Did you love me only in my head?
Things you said and did to me
Seemed to come so easily
The love I thought I’d won you give for free
Whispers at the bus stop
I heard about nights out in the school yard
I found out about you
Rumors follow everywhere you go
Like when you left and I was last to know
You’re famous now and there’s no doubt
In all the places you hang out
They know your name and know what you’re about
Whispers at the bus stop
I heard about nights out in the school yard
I found out about you
Street lights blink on through the car window
I get the time too often on am radio
You know it’s all I think about
I write your name drive past your house
Your boyfriend’s over I watch your light go out
Whispers at the bus stop
I heard about nights out in the school yard
I found out about you
- 8. Found Out About You | | | Posted 11/3/2003 5:34 AM - 1 view - 4 comments
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