this week has just not been one of the best ones. I'm definitely getting farther from the Lord.  I've been letting wordly issues get in the way. and my mind is just so boggled and confused with my surroundings.   Last night I was calm though.  I just kind of let everything out, a lot of thinking involved.  And a lot of listening to Relient K. 

sometimes i'm just crazy about studying. and i can't prioritize my friends and studying.  i'm starting driving school soon, or whatever. the thing where you go to study to learn about your permit.   this is what i asked for, so this is what im gonna work hard for.  i chose to take a lot of classes, chose to do sports, and etc. etc.

i don't think i'm working hard enough to please my parents. we constatly argue. we're all stubborn. and we get mad over little things.  and i'm not spending enough time with them. it's always about school.  i dont know how im gonna survive junior year haha.

but yeah....i will be okay. i really need to go to church. but that will be in a while.... ): and again i love people, but not the things they do.....