today i went walking with my neighbors(Liz and An). it was nice going on a walk again...something i used to do with Liz almost everyday last year....fun stuff...just to talk about random things and not having to drive somewhere or spend a lot of money just to hang out.

in english we have to write a memoir. and it's due so soon. i'm so stuck on what i want to write. i'm actually blank.  as i reflect on my 15  years of life it all seems so insignificant compared to other people's lives...i haven't been through many "bumps and turns". no challenges. no responsibilities. no big talents. idk there's times that i feel so..."normal"(i'll have to write another blog on the definition of normal).  right now i can't seem to think of anything that will truely set me apart from everyone else...i used to have such a huge passion for softball. and now it's like "bleeeeeeh".  i guess i shall stop comparing lives, because God is the greatest thing in my life and with Him, blessing and gifts will just blossom and revelations will come to me, just in His timing.

i like how karla said "stop messin around with someone your not gonna marry."  that has been one of my philosophies on dating and stuff like that for a long time...it's weird but i'm not gonna go out with someone unless i can see myself marrying them.  i dont really see the point in dating if you're not going to marry them.  but then maybe i'm just weird, and missing the whole point of the dating experience lol. but whatever. idk sometimes i feel so left out because i'm not interested in flirting and boys... maybe that kinda sets me apart? sometimes i just feel revolved around superficial people who are only interested in cute guys. or maybe i'm just insecure that a stupid boy will come along and play with me and then leave me feeling like crap(i am really tired of having to deal with this happening to my friends). anywho.  that's enough "boy talk" for the day....