Saturday, June 14, 2008
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Desicions...Breathe easy..
I'm meeting Yousif in about 20 minutes.
I have no idea what to do...what to say...What decision is right? Which is wrong? Should I stay with him or should I let him go...?
All I know is that he loves me...from the bottom of his heart.. But do I love him? How do you know?
How do you know that you're in love? I can't say..
I just don't want to regret my decision...when it's too late...Should I just follow my heart? But what if I don't know, what my heart wants? What my heart needs?
I will never be able to give him what he is ready to offer.
Or is it just another excuse of mine, a part of me that is scared? Scared to let someone in? But what if it's not love...? What if' it's just his presence that makes me feel good...
"Crushed me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Crushed me inside
I left the one I was looking to find "
How do you know?
I don't...
I wish I knew....
I guess I'll just let it go, let the conversation begin. Let him begin.
"Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That's all I'm breathing for "
I'll need all luck of the world.
I'm 2 steps from falling into a huge hole. It's a 50 - 50 decision....God. I just want love. Is it too much to ask for?
I hope not.
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Comments (3)
i know exactly where you're coming from. when my boyfriend first said he loved me i freaked. i was drunk and told him i wasn't sure i could love him back the same way he loved me. but being with him and letting him love me to death changed my heart. there's something deep inside that just clicks when you finally fall in love. and you know it for sure when you're staring at him and the only words you can think to say are, "i love you." when that happens, you'll know. don't be afraid to be loved. i know how scary it is. just let it happen. you'll find it's the most wonderful thing ever!
haha sorry for such a long comment. just thought i'd give some advice :)
please read my new blog, i hope it explains everything
Just be yourself.