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got this off a web forum...i love it i love her but i hate her, she's my mind, body, and soul. she's there for me when i need her, she's what makes me whole. she's in my head always, taking over my mind. even th…
fuck what i said, i was wrong i was stupid i wanna be ana so bad i wanna feel my stomach be empty i wanna feel lighter i wanna make myself not eat, so that i can lose the weight i put on yes im starting off b…
hey all...this is going to be my last post i told my mom everything that my friend and i had been doing relating to anarexia, and she got really worried. shes taking me to see a nutritionist, by my choice, because a…
today...168...but its ok bc i slipped up the other day and had starbucks and subway again... b-kashi go lean cereal (95) l - tuna with lemon pepper on it cheese orange (195) d- pria bar (110) total for …
167!!! nuff said!!!
thank u girls, for all of your comments, they help alot b-peach canadian baccon (60) l/d- grilled cheese (130) ice cream (500+) but then i got together with a friend and did a half hr salsa video for …
ok so then yesterday, i had ice cream and then had some again today im such a week fool i keep getting honked at when i walk to work...the count it up to 8. but as i lose more and more it is getting more frequent! y…
b-watermelon (25) l/d- spaghetti (310) canadian baccon (120) salad (~20) total: 475 cals walking from work and standing for four hours: -863 so im negative for the day!! plus, i was down to 169.5 t…
Thats it! i hate this stupid fatty ugly body of mine!! im going on a fast!! and im not stopping! i hate myself right now! i just wanna be thin! no food, just water, and neg. cal foods if i have to eat around my mom! …
ok so yesterday some site told me that eating a lot of carbs and a lil protein is bad for diet success, so i'm going to cut carbs and increase protein and see how that goes b- canadian baccon (60 cals) cheese (…
ok so today b- nothing l- soup and grilled cheese (350) d- pbj and an orange and yorgurt with sprinkles [seriously what is wrong with me!!] (450) total 750 cals...maybe more...im guessing in my favor on the pbj wa…
so when i had the starbucks and subway, i was hoping to boost my metabolism to drop me down under 170. when i did that i went up to 172/173 and last nights elliptical mirracle put me at 170/171 this morning does anyone…
ok so i got on my elliptical machine for two hours!!! yay me and i burned 840 cals!!!! yay me i can't wait to lose the weight yay me i think the cal counter in my elliptical is wrong because i looked it up on th…
I HAVE A QUESTION... how often can one safely fast, before causing serious damage... and how long could each fast be and would it be better to fast for a day then eat then fast then eat... or fast for a bit then ea…
Rach_T12's site has some nice ana sites to help more thinspo The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me. just go check it out for yourself
I've come up with the ultimate inspiration for thinness... theres this girl that i hate more than anything, she's such a bitch... and she always whines about how fat she is... shes got some padding but is otherwise …
a friend of mine binged for a few days and then the pounds started falling off again...im gonna try that sorta subway 6 in grade strawberries and cream frappachino mmmmmm but ew at the same time ana love
el rodeo... how disgusting i am at least it was the only meal i ate all day but still over 1000 cals...it had to have been how disgusting thats it...its fasting time
i feel dirty, i ate like a pig at dinner ewie... b- pria bar (110) l- mountain dew (170) ...i know i know...disgusting disgusting disgusting d- grilled cheese (150) 1/2 a yogurt (60) watermelon and strawb…
ok there were a couple of requests to explain how i lost four pounds in one day...heres exactly what i did b-bowl of watermelon chunks glass of water multivitamin l- 15-20 baby carrots 1/2 a cup of blu…
ok so i weighed in yesterday morning and decided that I was way too fat... i gained a pound that sucked so much so i fasted...only neg. cal. foods and water for a whole day and i made my first goal weight!!!! HELL Y…
Ok... so... I am down to 173!! YAY This is going so great. I am losing like a pound a day! How awesome is that!! I feel so good! On another note though, my mom started noticing my eating habits and my weight lo…
Ok... so... I am down to 173!! YAY This is going so great. I am losing like a pound a day! How awesome is that!! I feel so good! On another note though, my mom started noticing my eating habits and my weight lo…
got this off of weighing_in's website ...maybe it will work for me for calories0-150 calories: 6 points151-300 calories: 5 points301-450 calories: 4 points451-600 calories: 3 points601-750 calories: 2 points751-800 ca…
mom made me have a sit down together style dinner tonight.... so not only did i pig out on spaghetti at lunch, but i had to eat a big dinner too... bleh b- nectarine (50) l- spaghetti (600) d- lil more spaghet…
hi all... ok so i am almost to the point where being hungry feels really good yay!! i am so new to this... i have almost no idea what i am doing... but whatever i am doing seems to be working i could really use s…
ok im feeling really good about this... i stepped on the scale this morning *drum roll* *drum roll* *drum roll* 175! ...thats -1 lb for all u guys that can't do math!! WHOOT this shit is going to melt right off…
b - 2 c. popcorn (the tasteless stuff) 50 cals l- asagio roast beef sandwich and brocoli and cheese soup about 650 cals d- i dono yet...i know i shouldnt eat but I promissed Brad that I wouldn't skip any meals... …
this is me. well, minus the haircut.
Survey:Current Weight: 176Current Height: 5'6Grade: 12Hair Color/Style: shoulder length brown hairEye Color: hazelFashion style: im all over the placeAge when developed eating disorder: 17Highest Weight Selection(all thi…
Hi everyone, It’s me This is what I’m trying to do… I want to lose all the weight that has been holding me back and be pretty Starting weight:187 Goal weight: 155 I have to lose 32 pounds! Let…