Monday, April 14, 2008

• I'm Back!

  Hey, everybody!

  I know, I know...I haven't blogged for a couple of weeks (possible, a few?). I've been super busy! Between my schedule going from basic busy to expert busy (it skipped a level!), my dog being sick, my parents driving me crazy, and trying to get my life straightened out - it's been one hell of a ride on my rollercoaster of a life.

  My schedule has been crazy hectic. I'm always busy, but never this busy. I have had appointment after appointment with the dentist, you may say to yourselves, "Wow, you're teeth must be really bad!" Actually, they aren't. See, my dentist is a total quack or rather, a total greed machine. I had three cavaties, only three. He fills two at my last appointment, I was already numbed up on the same side as the other cavity and what does he do? He says, "Come back next week and I'll fill your last cavity." It was so aggravating, I tried to get him to go ahead and do the other one, that way I would be finished and would just have to come back for a teeth cleaning in 6 months, but no, he couldn't do that. He just wants more money for another visit. Anyway, my next (and last!) visit is Wednesday morning. Thank God!

  On top of the dentist, I also had to go to the vet last week. My teacup poodle was sick, she was constantly throwing up for about three weeks. I hated to take her to the vet, but I couldn't let her suffer and continue to be sick. So I picked her up in her blankee and took her to the vet, she seemed to like the vet....until he started to check her. I have never heard a dog scream like that, the vet assured me she wasn't in any pain, she was just nervous. Which I believed, she's a nervous dog in general, most poodles are. As for the results, her tests came back fine, and I got to take her home that day, so I didn't have to leave her alone and I know she's alright. Turns out, her stomach was just upset.

  Oh yes, let's talk about my parents: they have been driving me to an early grave (not literally, of course). My mom tends to get on my nerves when she drinks, even though it isn't all the time - it still bothers me, mostly, it's because my dad died of drinking, but he did do it everyday. Now onto my dad (my stepdad, I mean, I just call him "Dad," so that's who I'm referring to usually, when I say "Dad"), he tends to make me feel as though I am never good enough - I mean never. He puts me down on things that I want to do or am already doing, as though I'm not capable of achieving my goals. The truth is I am perfectly capable of accomplishing my goal and even have a plan, in order to do so. Yet he still see's no potential.

  However, lately, we have been getting along very well and he's been acting more supportive. Hopefully, this is a sign that things will change. I'm understanding of the fact that we all have our bad days, including me, I'm just not sure I understand why you have to be that way everyday.

  So with all of this happening, I have been and still am trying to figure my life out. I have a good plan, I am sticking to it and am trying to be a more positive person. When someone asks me how I'm doing, instead of saying "Okay" or "Fine," I want to have the confidence and truly be able to say, "Fabulous." It's true what they say, life really is what you make of it - and I plan to make it the best possible, one day at a time.

  What have you been going through lately (good and/or bad)?

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