Random thoughts...

It occurred to me last night that some people really believe in unique love... That there might be a "One" person out there for "you" and if you miss it, you might not get another chance. I never thought about it till I was talking to a friend about a girl he's seeing... He made it sound like it's so important to see if there's "something there". 

I've recently discovered that I'm just a real asshole I guess. I have no interest in any of that and I assume that things are exactly as they should be - whether I'm single or not.... whether I feel lonely or happy or whatever. I think that what we feel about our circumstances is largely a decision rather than something that happens "to" us. The events themselves are like storms passing over your house at night. It's your choice whether to hide under the covers and cry or to keep partying.

It appears that work - art and teaching - is just more important to me than most other things. My phone keeps ringing and I keep ignoring it. I guess I just don't have much to say these days. I'm not depressed. On the contrary, I'm really enjoying my life. I just spend most of my time alone now - working. Some days I'm working on the frames for my August show (which I'm rediculously excited about). Some days, I'm grading papers. Some days I just sew and care for the animals. People keep trying to tell me to "rest", but how much more restful could life be? Sitting around sewing for an art show is just about as peaceful and easy as it gets right?  I find that life gets less happy when one's hands aren't busy. I'm certainly not straining myself. I'm just not making the choice to make time for things other people consider recreation.  We don't really have to agree do we?

I discovered the other day that one can cut luaun with a box cutter. This is the most exciting discovery I've made in a LONG time!!! For those who don't know, luaun is a kind of cheap plywood. It has a fairly nice surface on it and is good for the backs of frames and also good to paint on. I like painting on wood better than I like painting on fabric. I like the texture and properties of the surface. It's also easier to frame for various reasons related to the particular tools I happen to own lol. It's also very inexpensive at about 50 cents per square foot!!! Cheaper than stretched canvas and more durable to boot!

Several pieces of embroidery are happily housed behind glass now. I've decided to forego the glass cutting tools for now since frames are dirt cheap at the Wally World anyway. Why deal with all the hassle and glass splinters when you can get a piece of 8x10 glass + a frame for less than 5 bucks? The frame is cheap, but I'll put a canvas board in that and paint all over the thing anyway so it's a great deal for me.

Destroy and rebuild.
Adapt or die.
Onward and upward.
O es i ominidi usi
Dominoes Nabisco
Wax on Wax off
om.