Chapter Zero.Lately it seems we've been getting into so…

Chapter Zero.
Lately it seems we've been getting into so many arguments. So many loud fights ending in tears and hurt feelings. How much more of this I can handle, I'm not really sure. So they tell me how dangerous you are, and that I should run...but its like a bungee cord. I can run as fast as I can away, but i just really end up back next to you. They tell me I can do so much better, but I don't want to stop believing in you. I don't want to stop believing that we can make it, and we can be happy...and what happens is that if I try to tell you I might lose you, and even though I've been trying to run away I can't lose you. Its all so whatever and I may be contradicting myself but sometimes thats just how I feel. I feel like telling you to fuck off, but i don't really want you to. I want you to understand that my feelings have been hurt and I want you to let me walk away...for about 5 steps, and then come after me. I know you can't read my mind...and its not really about reading my mind. Its about making me feel better when you know that I'm just about to give up, because even though you can't possibly know what I'm thinking, If you love me like you always tell me you do...you would know that I love you too and that I don't want to give up as much as i think i do.