I have not blogged for many days now - papa is weaker and no longer able to eat by himself so I go up for all meals - he does not eat much but I like to make sure what he can eat is hot- he slips slowly each day and yet surprizes the nurses and doctors- they do not understand how he is still here but I know that it is in God's time and His will will be done- I miss him here so much- the house is not feeling like home right now- I do stay some nights but that is sometimes too much for me if he is not restful-

I pray for his suffering now has he is in great pain from pressure of laying down even though he has a fancy new kind of hospital mattress- his pain from the cancer is less -

I am battling this walk now and having a hard time and can only manage to hang on to the Shepherd- I do not understand but I do know where papa will Go when his life here on earth is done- that is what gives me strength -

I will try to blog soon again- sometimes it is too much to share my heart as it feels so barren- thank you for praying for us

huggles Meme