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Name: Phil
Country: United States
Metro: Worcester
Birthday: 9/18/1989
Gender: Male


Interests: horror movies, concerts, moshing, headbanging, death fests, listening to METAL (death metal, grindcore, black metal, speed metal, thrash metal, hXc, deathgrind, gore metal, doom metal, heavy metal, power metal), drinking, metal parties, horror movies, horror conventions, tattoos, NYDM, REDRUM RECORDS, ENDEMONIADA ZINE, DEFILED RECORDS, EL DIABLO PRODUCTIONS, EARACHE RECORDS, DUFF'S BROOKLYN BAR, LOST DISCIPLE RECORDS, MEANS 4 WAR, METAL MANIACS MAGAZINE, NECROPOLIS RECORDS, NYMA, OH MY GORE! ZINE, PARAGON RECORDS, PIT MAGAZINE, PRIMITIVE BRUTALITY, RAZORBACK RECORDS, RED STREAM RECORDS, RELAPSE RECORDS, REPULSE RECORDS, SNAKENET RADIO, SOMBERLAIN PRODUCTIONS, UBERNOIZE PRODUCTIONS
Expertise: writing poems. want one. they're free.
Occupation: Student


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Member Since: 5/2/2005

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Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Currently Listening
This Is Love, This Is Murderous
By Bleeding Through
Love Lost In A Hale Of Gunfire
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today was interesting....actually no it wasnt...it sucked.

 

1.driving school

2.sleep

3.workout for several hours

 

that was my day and now i'm not doing too swell. those old feelings are back again...the whole suicide thing. i'm talking to heather right now and she said if i kill myself she'll kill herself...idk what i'm going to but i guess you'll find out sooner or later

 


Sunday, June 26, 2005

Currently Listening
Led Zeppelin IV (aka ZOSO)
By Led Zeppelin
Black Dog
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ok pretty much this entry is about this girl i like named caitie. shes seans older sister and she has a boyfriend named matt. i have a lot of respect for matt, one of the coolest kids i know, its just that i sort of hate the fact shes with him and not with me. i know that there is an age difference and that shes going off to college and all of that. but i figure that she would judge on maturity and shit like that. i dont know. i've liked her ever since i met her, not because shes older or that shes extremely beautiful but because i felt i really connect with her. i cant explain how much i care about her...i cant say i love her because i havent done anything with her but its close to love...very close. actually i've been thinging about her a lot lately and i was wondering what if her and i did date...? what would it be like?...............idk....caitie i need to talk to you about this so when you get a chance call me and we can get together to talk about this....one on one.

i was going to tell you more about what i'm thinking about at your party but i didnt see any chance of getting you alone so...


Currently Listening
Lightning Crashes
By Live
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how is everyone today?....i'm doing just fine. been doing some thinking and i realize that i'm tired of being alone and i'm tired of throwing myself out there all the time. so from now on i'm just going to be casual about things, i'm just going to let things happen insted of forcing things.

last day of school was good. said bye to all my friends, made plans for the summer and shit like that. i was invited to a BBQ yesterday but i completely spaced out when i got home and missed it. oh well. shit happens...am i right? of course i am, you stupid fuck.

anyways...i'm pretty much home until i make plans today...i'll be in my pool maybe... not sure about that. but anyways...i'm done writing.

bye


Monday, June 13, 2005

Currently Playing
Sex & Candy
By Marcy Playground
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hey whats going on everyone? not too much here...some things have been happening lately...allow me to update.

i just found out that i have an infection in both ears from swimming too much. this sucks because i cant hear too good right now and my music doesnt sound the same...its pissing me off.

i havent been in contact with a lot of people lately...its probably my fault but w/e. i'm just too lazy to be calling people to chill with them. i've been wanting to chill with a lot of people but i can never get a hold of them. oh well.

i like someone...actually i like 3-4 people. one of them is my friends older sister and shes going to dartmouth college and has a boyfriend so i cant really do anything there. this other girl is in a relationship and even though the relationship is rocky, even if her and i dated it wouldnt work. this other girl lives too far away and really isnt taking me seriously so w/e. and the last person but definitly not least i havent met yet. she is really amazing and beautiful and i feel like i connect with her but her and i havent chilled once.

 

thats pretty much all i need to say for now.

l8r


Saturday, June 04, 2005

Currently Playing
Disarm
By Smashing Pumpkins
Disarm
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100 QUESTIONS

1. What is your full name? Philip John Ward

2. How many siblings do you have? 1

3. What color is your hair? black

4. What color are your eyes? brown

5. How tall are you? 6' 1"

6. Do you like taking showers or baths? showers

7. Do you have braces? no

8. Do you have freckles? no

9. What do you think of yourself? romantic

10. What kind of clothes do you wear? boots, t-shirt, jeans.

11. Do you overanalyze a lot? no

12. Do you do good in school? good enough

13. Are you close to most of your friends? yes

14. How many maths have you taken? 3

15. Do you work? yes

16. What kind of car do you want? i want a truck.

17. Do you have a bf/gf? no

18. What is today? Saturday

19. What website's are you subscribed to? i dont subcribe to anything

20. How many computer's are in your house? 1

21. How many bathroom's are in your house? 1

22. Do you tan easily? no

23. Have you ever been to Florida? many times

24. Do you have any serious medical conditions? not really

25. Have you broken any bones in your body? nose

26. Have you ever seen the show "Laguna Beach"? no

27. What is the lastest CD you bought? staind- break the cycle

28. What is the latest CD you listened to? staind- break the cycle

29. Have you had a lot of homework lately? no

30. Do you like to watch soccer? no...soccer is a pussy sport

31. What is your favorite shape? pentagram

32. Do you like to blow bubbles? yeah

33. Have you ever smoked? yes

34. Who is your favorite teacher? Mr. Russo

35. What do you think of the movie "Napoleon Dynamite"? dumbest thing i've ever seen

36. Do you like Reese's, Snicker's or 3 Musketeers the best? Reese's

37. What is your favorite flavor jelly bean? black

38. Do you straighten your hair every morning? no

39. When you were little did you ever want to be a pirate? no

40. Are you familiar with the show "Rocko's Modern Life"? yes

41. Have you been to Chuckie Cheese in the past year? yes

42. Are you in high school? yes

43. Do you plan on going to college? yes

44. Do you have more than 2 piercings? yes

45. Would you ever get any more piercings? hell yeah

46. Do you have a lot of nicknames? yes

47. Do people call you by your real name? sometimes

48. Do you live on the water? no

49. Have you ever been skiing? no

50. Have you ever been snowboarding? no

51. Have you ever purchased anything from CVS? yes

52. What are you scared of? nothing i'm aware of

53. Have you ever had sushi? no

53. Have you ever eaten calamari? no

54. Do you like dogs? yes

55. Do you believe in any form of religion? no

56. What does your bedroom look like? even with the light on its dark

57. Do you read a lot? yes

58. How long is your hair? kinda short

59. Do you have any bad habits? If so, what are they? falling for the wrong people

60. Where do you go to school? Assabet Valley

61. What is the last thing you heard? wow!

62. What is the next big holiday coming up? forth of july

63. Are you going to the beach this summer? yes

64. Have you ever played online Bingo? yes

65. Have you ever played iSketch online? no

66. What color pens do you have? black, blue

67. When was the last time you were sick? last month

68. Do you eat your vegetables? yep

69. Do you wear skirts a lot? this one time at a party (i was drunk)

70. What is your favortie outfit? none

71. Are you addicted to gum? yes

72. Do you get into sports on TV? baseball, football, rugby. hockey

73. Who do you think is the hottest celebrity? Angelina Jolie

74. What is your least favorite band? i dont fucking know

75. What is the best ride in an amusement park? roller coaster

76. What is the last thing you said out loud? shit

77. Are you extremely bored right now? sort of

78. Do you like having snowball fights? yes

79. When was the last time it snowed? March?

80. When was the last time you saw a fight? Scorpion VS. Reiko

81. Have you ever seen a dolphin up close? at my grandmothers house

82. Do you overuse the word "LOL"? no

83. Do you like to watch porn? yes

84. How many classes are you in in school right now? 7

85. How often do you check your email? once a day

86. Have you ever wish upon a star? yes

87. What was the last party you went to? at a friends house a few weeks ago

88. Who was the last person you had over your house? i dont remember

89. What's the best quality in a guy/girl? humor

90. Do you own a LiveStrong bracelet? fuck that shit

91. What was the most trouble you've ever gotten into? not sure

92. What mesmorizes you when you look at it? bright lights?

93. What is the best guy name? mine

94. Have you ever been set up with somebody you hardly knew? no

95. Have you ever been on a waterbed? yes

96. When was the last time you got in trouble at school? thursday

97. Are you sitting in a computer chair? yes

98. Who is in the room with you? alone

99. What is on the table that you are sitting at? cd's, phone, cell phone, etc.

100. How many Xanga sites have you viewed today about? 3



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