so my brother came home for his 25th birthday...we had fun...played mj and i lost...yes...for the first time in many years...he actually won...but that doesn't really count...coz when he played, he lost...it's the girlfriend that won for him...hahaha...yes, the power of the girlfriend...or maybe i was unconsciously losing to him...coz it's his birthday afterall...

just finished ranking my bids for the OCI...i went to see this attorney (mommy's friend's kid) and we sorta looked through my list of employers and talked about them together...i'd like to say that she's a lot of help...but not really...everything was a little bit wishy washy...then again, these things are like that...good thing is that i finally finished...so that's one big thing out of the way...starting next week, i should get started on the outlines and my diet...sigh...no more food...judy sad...

there's a lot on my mind right now...a lot of things that trouble me more than others because of my nature...because of my thirst and quest for romance...on the way, i often get lost...in my case, it's hard to meet the knight in shining armor...but i've been doing well...recovering...learning...and appreciating the honesty, the reasoning that people part with me...i'm trying to "grow" on my own...if that's all possible...for the people that know me well, know that it's not that easy for me to stay alone...but perhaps i should...instead of smothering the one that i'm with...the rage of jealousy, the rising of immaturity, the helpless and the needy...the pressure, the steam...it really is too much and draining...i guess sometimes i destroy simplicity...

met a writer in heaven on friday night...now that is a woman...and of course i should have guessed...a scorpio...a woman's woman...we talked about a lot of things...art, intellect, people's perception, our views of life or something like it...it's a wonderful surprise to meet so many interest people at the bar...who would have thought?

lastly, ally has been over a few times...she's super good to me...she cleans and iron my cloth...at night she would hold me to sleep...we are becoming better friends...it's really nice...maybe this being friends thing will work out for the best...=)