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Name: Pauline
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Francisco
Gender: Female
Interests: serving my Lord and worshipping Him, teaching preschoolers, singing, reading, shopping, hanging out, dancing, writing poems and short stories, surfing the Net
Expertise: fiction writing...media, music and performing arts...shopping:)...partying:)...romance and reminiscing:)...being a full-blooded Pinay
Occupation: Journalist
Industry: Media
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  sugaryspicyplen
Yahoo:  sunflower_plen
Member Since:
1/9/2004
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| Braving my battle.Since the day I moved to San Francisco - which is a little over a year ago now, to the day - I've fought the toughest, most challenging battles I've ever had to face in my entire life.
-There was the loneliness and homesickness...
-The health problems and exhaustion...
-The responsibilities and tasks piling up relentlessly...
-The pain and worry over seeing people I care about the most fall into sin or deep trials (and not be able to do anything except pray for them)...
-The financial difficulties (which have been the worst of all)...
Many of these I had to face on my own, with only God on my side.
I know now that a year ago, I made the enemy quite unhappy by coming up here and responding to God's call. And he's done nothing since then but throw rocks onto my path.
But there have also been countless victories. To name a few:
-Starting a campus ministry and seeing it flourish and draw people to Christ (yay Kapwa!)...
-Becoming a part of the amazing growth of Hydro and WIN SV...
-Developing a deep burden and learning to pray for the city of San Francisco (and having some of those prayers already answered)...
-Having opportunities to stand with fellow believers as they fought their battles, and seeing them overcome...
-Overcoming my personal trials, slowly but surely, as God provided and granted me favor...
My battles are far from over. If anything, this summer has been a constant battle, but as some wise person (namely Harvey Dent in the Dark Knight - lol) said, "The night is darkest before the dawn." God will pull me through this, as He has never left nor forsaken me throughout the year. Thanks to Him, I'm still standing. And I only hope this will be an encouragement to all those who are growing overwhelmed by their own battles.
I know I'm on the right path because I'm making the enemy work double-time to keep me from doing God's work.
For all of you who are braving your own battles, know that "greater is He who is in [us], than he that is in the world." (1 John 4:4)
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| Meeting the parents...and your whole family...and your whole church...
was a real pleasure.
You are wonderful because you have been raised and surrounded by wonderful people.
And I love how you've acknowledged my role in your life in front of the people who matter to you the most.
Part of me is scared, though.
Because last night gave me a glimpse of what my future could look like...or what I want it to look like, at least.
It's nice, but different from what I'm familiar and comfortable with.
And I realize there's a lot to live up to, and a lot to leave behind.
You've invited me into your world.
I wonder if I'm ready.
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| A Very Special Loveby Maureen McGovern
I never believed in love
I was deceived by love
I never had much luck with lovers before
And I couldn't compete
I seemed just part of the street
To be walked on by everyone, but then...
Then I found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go
You're not like the rest
I know you're one of the best
You give more than you should and take nothing in return
Stay always with me
And I always will be
The one person that you can count on always to love you
And I found a very special love in you
It's a feeling that's so totally new
Over and over, it's burning inside
I found a very special love in you
And it almost breaks me in two
Squeezing me tighter
But I'm never gonna let go...
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| Change."You've got to be so sick of second best that the pain of change will be less than the pain of staying the same."
- Pastor Wayne Cordeiro, New Hope Church Hawaii
Change: the only permanent thing in life. One important lesson the summer has taught me is that things can no longer stay the same. I am an adult now who has to make grown-up choices, and choosing responsibility over fun and calling over comfort are just two of those myriad choices. Granted, they're not easy, but they are necessary decisions.
Observing the pattern of my life in the past years, I notice that a season of comfort and favor is followed a season of trials and difficulty, after which a huge change occurs in my life. And because this summer is the dry season that followed the spring of blessings, I cannot help but be certain that another big change is coming up soon. And it's exciting. At a time when my mind is slowly shifting more and more towards marriage, career and serious ministry choices, the next few months could determine the course of the rest of my life.
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| Mourning into dancing.Since the end of last week, the sun has been shining over my life again.
Literally and figuratively. =)
I have so much to be thankful for, and it's funny how you don't realize that at all when you're caught up in anxiety and depression. Although things have not changed dramatically, what has changed is my perspective on this trying season of my life.
My Jesus has turned my mourning into dancing and my sorrow into joy.
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