| | I know what my problem is. It isn't fear of rejection. It's
the exact opposite. It's fear of sucess. I guess it's
really just a fear of the unknown. Cuz all I'm used to is the
depressing unhappiness. What would I do if I won? I mean,
that's like the undiscovered country. I don't know what I would
do. And I guess that scares me. Which is why I always do
some stupid shit to mess everything up right when I'm on the verge of
sucess. Which is why I didn't get a B in Geometry last year, why
I'm 0.2 points of getting a B in Spanish III. I'm a
failure. And I'm trapped in my own little endless loop.
Kinda heavy on the Angst there, huh?
"What would I do if we were perfect? Where would I go for
disappointment? Words without pain would leave me nothing left to
say......With nothing to complain about in Heaven, what would I do?" -
Down Here in Hell by Van Hunt.
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