It's happening again. Things with him had been getting better, and then a while back they started going down hill again. Only this time, there is no one else. It is just me. Yes, there is someone I like, but I know he doesn't like me. So it's no big deal. It doesn't affect anything, it's like having a crush on an actor. I am having a hard time dealing with how I feel, I am sad, and miserable. And he doesn't help because he is cranky, pissy and has an attitude.
We talked today and I told him that I am miserable, and that I might want out. I wasn't that straight forward about wanting out, but I said that if things don't change it will be over. My only problem is I don't want to be alone. I know that I will not stay with him just so I won't be alone, but I am not ready to be alone. The saddest part is, I love him, I do. I just don't know if I can be with him.
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