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Name: *KeNdRa*
Country: Jamaica
Birthday: 1/2/1990
Gender: Female


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Expertise: I so used to being lost in a dream to absolutly perfect... and waking up to reality and realize that nothing is ever as it seems... and dreams arent true.. so nthing is perfect.. so i dont even try to make it happen anymore because things are the way they are for a reason so i m jsut gonna leave the malone before i fuck something else up.....
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

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Saturday, December 11, 2004

Deep down inside there’s that one person you truly love,

no matter how hard you try to hide it, you always have that feeling inside of you.

Everytime you see that person, your insides begin to melt,

your eyes light up, and you can't help broadening a smile upon your face.

Whenever you see this person you immediately become unaware of the

environment around you, and for that one second everything in your

vision becomes vague except the picture of this persons face.

When you look into this persons eyes you see a twinkle that tells

you this person is the one for me.

When that person leaves the room you suddenly gets a chill in

your bones that is unstoppable.

Every second you spend with this person makes your heart even number to the pain of how much you truly love them.

Inside your head, it’s almost like a recording playing over and over again of this persons voice.

Each day it’s like a regret that you don’t tell them how you feel.

Your head fills with confusion while your heart fills with pain.

One day not knowing the outcome you will somehow find the strength to state your true feelings for this one person in your life.

After all is said and done you will walk away together or not, but still knowing you did the right thing.

 

 


Monday, November 29, 2004

What Would You do if...
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:

What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Friends:
Decisions:

Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet (or a big missle) for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Have Sex with me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Date me:


Monday, November 22, 2004

10 things about 10 boyss

 

1. i met this boy in sixth grade....cutest boy i had ever seen... got pretty close with him.... then he moved and i got to middle school ... and i never saw him agian... but all the memories i had with are still with me today.

2. seventh grade i met my best friend.... hes the one i always have the most fun with and laugh the hardest around. i have crushed on this boy for almost 2 and a half years now... and the more i think about it the more i m glad we dont take it to the next level because i m not sure hwat i would do if he wasnt there for me ne more.... he is that one person that knows me better than i know myself... he can tell when i walk into a room smiling that there just might be some thing i m hiding. i love you!!!!

3. this boy i didnt know that long but i  knew long enough to know i liked him. he went out with my best friends so that almost made him off limits for me so i jsut stuck to being his best friend and i think that turned out better... except he moved and we dont talk ne more. i miss him...

4. I have this best friend who can jsut make me laugh when i am feelnig the worst... who seems like a male verison of me... he says he likes me from time to time... but for some reason i dont feel the same way... hes more like my bigg brother he watches out for me..... so me and him are prolly better as brother sister than it is ne thing else.

5. I met this boy like a year ago now i guess.... we werent rly that close but close enough to take it to the next level i didnt rly know him and he didnt rly know me... but it lasted for a little while but it jsut wasnt worth it because in middle school terms "going out" 99 out of 100 times ruins a friendship and thats what it did.

6. i never thought id date someone younger but then i met him... he was perfect in every way... we went out for a lil while but it was kinda weird after that i almost was possitive we would never speak again..... and now today he just happens to be my best friend.

7. i went out for a night with my friends and i happened to stumble upon this boy that i felt so special around....i never thoguht id see him again.. but i wanted to so we exchanged numbers... but after talknig to him he turned out to be someone  other than who i thought he was and someone other than who i wanted him to be....he just wanted someeee.... and i m just not like that... so we are cool but we dont rly talk ne more.... but every once in a while my phone rings and his number flashes on the screen.

8. i kinda met some new people at my school this year... actually alot of new ppl... this one boy was just so beautiful and i fell for him right away.... along with every other girl that ever looked into his eyes... hes one of those very physically blessed ppl..... hes so awesome... and at one point he wanted me... but it never happened... and i never knew if he liked me if he just wanted some or what but now it doesnt matter cause were good friends and thats all i want from him.

9. Simple story some kid goes to my school he was sweet i met him i danced with him we liked each other but we did nothing about it... but there is always time.... who knows?!!?!?

10. i saved the best story for last....where to begin.. i met this boy i guess about a year ago i didnt rly talk to him until a few months ago and we just clicked like that... we instantly became closer and closer... so many ppl warned me about him but i didnt want to listen i wanted to give him the chance he deserved .... he told me how much he liked me and for some reaosn i liked him tooo... i just didnt tell him until it was too late.... but maybe that was for the best cause then at least we would always be friends....but then again maybe not.. because we  are not friends ne more... mostly because of me but i m not willing to take all the blame.... he says i have changed and maybe i have but if he rly cared about me he would want to know why and he would wanna help..... i mean even after all th shit he said to me and everything i said to him... i didnt mean it i am sorry.. i m not asking for you to forgive me.... i still feeel that somewhere through this messed up thing we call life that if things get better ... then so will he and i....


Tuesday, November 09, 2004

I have spent the last few weeks in my confusing thoughts... blocking out the world...

ignoring the things i didnt wanna hear,

closing my eyes to the things i dont wanna see....

but lately i have closed my heart to the things i dont wanna feel.......

Trying to hide behind my smiles isnt working anymore... there is a time in someones life that they are to focus on themselves and only themselves... not in a selfish way but in a way to shape the person they can imagine themselves being in the future and its acutally someone they are proud of.... for a while now i have been one of those ppl who could change into w/e anyone wanted... i wouldnt say split personality but i would rather say pleasing the outside world before taking care of her own needs.... i really need to take a look at myself and i dont mean a look in the mirror to see that my reflection hasnt changed accept for the mear image of me getting alittle more matured i need to look inside to see if my actions rly are portraying what i truly feel... i wanna look at my friends to see if they like me for who i am ... or who they want me to be....... i think its time now that all the childish years are passed that i myself grow up.... I have set a new goal for myself.... i wanna expand my view on every individual... i dont wanna judge by what i see but by what the person makes me feel.... this will the last entry for a while....

after i have examined myself and changed into who i wanna be and my inner reflection changes  ill be back... but until then everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it



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